They pretty much adore me :)

Friday, December 25

i LOVE you Granny! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY & MERRY CHRISTMAS GREAT GRANNY, Mrs. Lizzie Lou Perkins - Ross! i MiSS & LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH! [understatement]
I'm having a wonderful day....i got a lot of money and would you like to know my favorite gift? SUPER MARIO on Wii!!!! Aghhh, if only yall knew hw much I LOVE video games! AND MARIO? Oh, i'd marry! Seriously! I'm sooo ready to crack this thing open and play....after my errands though!!!!! Have to spend time with my FAMILY! :) Hope you all's day goes well. Remain happy & blessed!!!!!
[p.s.-no internet still..smh!]

Wednesday, December 23

.....and the obiturary reads " at 9:02pm on December 23, she died from lack of internet. She had been with out it for 3 days and....well, it was the death of her."lol, clearly i have no internet and i'm losing my mind. GOSH. I am seriously going crazy...i feel like i'm cut off from life. *sigh* I've realized I rely too much on the internet. Smh....i need to get it together. No checking others blogs,no browsing for pics for my post, no googling silly twitter or youtube. Ughhhh....stupid house with no internet,and my phone is temporarily without it as well...I'm sooo sad. Blogging through text message from my phone? HORRIBLE! I cant edit anything...and since Im writting all of this in a typing everything shorthand. Smh.

Quick update: ive been running everywhere getting everyones elses gifts..and im still missing 2 ppl. Its going to be hell getting them gifts tomoro. UGH! This break so far--sucks serious ass! Ive been the worst friend ever, i need to contact my besties soon! Im nt really in the christmas spirit.
Anywho hopefully i hv my internet back soon...Toodles!

Saturday, December 19

Who Dat say they gone beat them Saints...Well I'm sure my boys said it...BITCHES! :x

Shit you already know why I'm here. You do know...right?! Who dat say they gone beat them Saints? Well MY motherfuckin' COWBOYS! Yea bitches! Oooooooh-Weeeeee! I admit I had my doubts but...they came through! Aghhhhhh, I love my BOYS!

Dear Boys:
Sorry for doubting you all. No doubt yall are the shit. That is all!
- Robyn

Now, I'm about to party my ass off. Yes I'm in a good ass mood! GOOO COWBOYS! Hell yea! Saints I like yall but I LOVE my boys! Ok, Toodles!

Would you like my finger for assistance? Fuck you bruh!


So....Have I ever mentioned how quick tempered I am? And how when I do get mad.....I get BEYOND mad. Guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Bullshit ass fussing about absolutley nothing. As soon as I calm down from that I open an email from some random person...talking about my blog! Everyone is entitled to their opinion on things... and I TRY to respect everyones opinion. So for those who read my blog and dont like it...keep yo' ass moving. Ok? Dont write me talking about I cuss to much and I'm fake and all other bullshit. I mean why would you constantly come back to read what I have to say if you didnt like the first post. And...saying you dont like me? When YOU dont know me? Just because you read my shit dont mean you know me as a person, so kill that shit. Usually I would not take my time out to address bullshit ass people but the email was rude ass hell. You dont care for me and think I'm a silly bitch? Seriously...dude swear if I knew you at all...let me calm it down! Anywho...why do people that dont like what the hell I have to say come back and keep reading my shit? Just to complain about how much you hate me?...when you dont know me.! It's the first negative response verbalized to me about my blog through email! I should post their email, but I rather not. If you dont like my shit say it in a respectful tone...simply say I dont like how you conduct your blog...that is all, and take your ass on to the next. Anywho...I could care less if you dont like what I have to say..I mean this is my opinion on shit. You dont have to like it..dont mean I'm gone read it and have a breakdown or nothing.I mean who the fuck are you for me to really care? No one! Next time you want to insult my blog...keep it only about the blog. Dont refer to me as a silly bitch or attack my character as a person when you dont know me. Say what you got to say with out calling me out my damn name. Silly childish ass people! Ok...Rant over!Your 2 minutes of fame is up...! Sorry about that yall...I just hate when people think they KNOW me from my writting. No one KNOWS me but keep that shit moving!
P.S- The game comes on tonight. Go Cowboys....[smh]
Ok, Toodles!

Friday, December 18

ElfYourself! :)

So...I can pretty much laugh at anything! i went to Need a cute laugh?...go make your own! lol! Enjoy mine with the people I mention most in this blog! :)

Send your own ElfYourself eCards
 I'm silly I know..but I just thought this was too cute. Im sending one to my mom! Anywho...I'm still up after being so tired..smh...I'm going to bed fareal this time. Toodles!

TMi?...Naw, It's just an award! :x

So.....I have ANOTHER award! Yes! Ya'll know how lazy I am and how I HATE following rules...BUT, I'm gone gone head and do this one right! Ok, SO I was  given the award by two different bloggers. First given by the amazing Ms. Cook[.The Poet] over at Musik&Soul! Definitely love reading her post. Most of her poems hit home [& they are damn good poems!]--and her opinion on other always a nice read! Secondly, Ms. Reese over at Sweet Insanity and Sarcasm! Always a pleasure to read [she told me I had to follow the rules..blah! lol]! Her take on things are quite interesting AND her tidbits of her life events..funny and enlightning to read.! Thank you ladies sooo much! If you arent already familiar with these two ladies run on over there[or click on over there..whatever]..and do that NOW!...Ok on to the Rules..blah! :)


*post the award on your blog
*list 8 things a voyeur / peeping tom could potentially catch you doing if they were watching you
*award up to 8 bloggers who match the criteria of this award
*make sure they know you enjoy peeping through their windows

8 Things a Voyeur/Peeping Tom could catch me doing--
.1 Singing my heart out to whatever slow song that pops up on my playlist! [Can't sing worth shit!]
.2 Shaking my ass around the room in very little OR dancing although i never do it when im out unless im buzzed. Smh!
.3 Snapping photos of myself...I love taking pictures..and I love why not?
.4 really relaxes me![Love arts of all kinds!]
.5 On my laptop...Youtube, Twitter, Blogger, or Googling some strange question.
.6 Writting...have to keep my thoughts in order! And reading, LOVE reading!
.7 Watching some amazing pornstar do incredible tricks...hey just being real!
.8 [Probably the craziest one:] Umm, well...because i dont REALLY open up to anyone I talk quite often when I'm alone. Out loud. AND...I actually have a person from my past that I go to with all my problems and talk to them as if they are really there. My mind adds there response automatically[even their laugh]...crazy as shit right? I dont really care that you think I'm crazy...everyone has odd quirks to them. [Thats definitely only one of many!]

So...8 people fit for the award..what does that mean? Does it mean that I feel like they give me TMi in a good way?..or the ones I like to "peep" on the most?...Hmmm, since this is a TMi award. I'm going to pick 8 bloggers who could probably get me moist on their writting skills alone. [I mean that is the straightest way :)!]

And the award goes to...
--Mae, Wifepoo, & A la belle etoille over at Chocolate For Aphrodite
--She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
--Jennifer Wilmer over Inside JStar's Head
--Val over at Planet Pro-tron
--Mo over at Truthfully Mo
--Rippa over at The Intersection of Madness and Reality
--Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
--Fabulo-la over at Me. And then some

Most of these being mostly poetry blogs! :) I LOVE poetry..pretty much obsessed with it and anyone who can write into my heart [or my panties ;)] I appreciate reading! & of course I'm giving it back to Cook and Reese! :)! See how I followed the rules to the tee?...Ya'll dont have to do that...AT ALL! lol, be lazy like me and just enjoy babes! Welcome new followers! :) ! Hope your learning things about me...I'm really not as weird as I sound...[I'm in denial] :)! Hmmm...had some things to discuss, but I'm too tired to try to type another post tonight. I'll do it in the morning...well whenever I decide to roll out of my bed tomorrow! Goodnight!

Thursday, December 17

*--Interrupting my regularly scheduled program--*

So there is a new young lady to blogger. Her name is MzAuNatural-Beauty over at *Truth On The Rocks! U Ready?*  Her sister posted a poem that she wrote and I would like everyone to go take there time out to read it! It's a wonderful piece! :)

A preview of HER poem:
Barbie Bitch

When I grow up

I wanna be ignorant.
I wanna answer to guys that approach me like
'yo shawty u real fly
and so wassup can I hit
I wanna be the ignant bitch,
you know the one that laugh and smile
and bite my bottom lip,
cuz I'm so happy that he treats me
just like the next chick.
But that’s all I can expect
Imitating girls like Nicki Minaj, Trina
And lil Kim,
I wanna be
Just like them!

..............Go read the rest *here*! It's a wonderful piece! Go over and welcome and comment! Ok....I'll be back with a topic later on today! Until then....Toodles! :)

Wednesday, December 16

Just a bunch of Random ish...


So every time I have a profound topic to discuss I forget it before I actually get to the computer. Maybe I should actually start to use this mobile blogging...! I hate when I'm out and I'm like "Oooh, I am going to blog about this as soon as I get to my laptop"...and soon as I get there it disappears! Anywho this is just a bunch of random shit thrown into one post. First and foremost....Cowboys lost. *sigh*, and I know I'm not supposed to say this as a fan BUT...I have NO hope for Saturdays game. None whatsoever...I mean if you read my mind I think it’s pretty much impossible to beat the Saints right now for my boys...*sigh*, but anyone who asks out loud I'll say “I’m going for my boys...we can pull this shit off"Psshhh! Yea...that would be a greatly appreciated miracle...but best believe I'll have my ass in front of that screen. Confession: Saints are my 2nd favorite team EVER. Definitely can’t wait for this game. I'm watching TV and I’m just wondering how does some of this shit get sold. Example: Chia Pets, Bump it's, Snuggies. Chia Pets...dude c'mon. Those things are hella old and super creepy...why are they still on the market. Smh. And those silly bump it’s...those commercials fuck those girls hair up. Seriously, everybody isn’t meant to have "body" in their hair. And Snuggies? Ughh...let me not start with those silly things. Smh!

Soooo...I've been knitting for like the past few hours. Lol, I always think it’s an old people thing. But it’s quite addicting. I learned how to knit in the 8th grade...and totally love it. :). My cousin came over today and he was like “What the hell? Sooooo, you knit now." "[*Laughter*] Yes. I'm just trying to...." "...Not be a nigga! You just trying to take all the nigga out of you." kind of statement is that to make. I mean really...who says shit like that! ....Welcome new followers! :) ! I appreciate you joining me! I love blogging! I always try to get everyone I know to start a blog. Like I'm getting paid to recruit bloggers. Lol, I think everyone should have a blog as an outlet...! They always say "I'm not a writer though"...and who ever said you have to be a "writer" to have a blog?! Believe it or not, I'm a really good writer. I hardly ever show it through this blog...but when it comes to important shit...I do well! :)! English/Writing is has always been my favorite subject. Worse? Everything else! Ughhh. Math, Science...even History! It's all too boring or too hard. I hate numbers. I love words. Oh, tonight I cooked Broccoli, cheese, chicken, and rice casserole for the first time ever. It was delicious! I love cooking, its calms me! Tomorrow I’m trying chicken spaghetti! :)!

I did a little Christmas shopping today. Mostly for the babies in my life though. I have 14 MORE people on my list. That’s RIDICULOUS! Idk how my list got so long. My mother already gave me half of my Christmas money. She asked did I want an iPhone. I was sooo happy she asked because I REALLY want one. BUT...I rather have more clothes. I need more scarfs, hats, and boots! She bought me two coats today. Too old for that?...Never! :)! I hate when people send me text saying “Hey stranger."...clearly I’m not responding to your text for a reason...and sending that is surely not going to help you out! Ugh, I’ve received some of the DUMBEST texts this week. Dudes can be too stupid! ...When should you tell your child that Santa doesn’t exist? I what age is too old to still believe in Santa. I told my mother she needs to let my sister know the business. Let her know that that fat old wrinkled white guy is not just that damn generous to give strangers gifts. ESPECIALLY since my mother spends wayyy too much on that lil girl for Christmas I mean when did Santa start bringing people all that expensive ass shit on her "wish list". She's sooo spoiled, but then again people say I was spoiled. Hell, they say I'm still spoiled. I do depend on my mother for mostly everything I guess she did spoil me growing up! Ok...way too much random shit in one post...I'll be back tomorrow with something to talk about! Until then...toodles! :)

Saturday, December 12

Sick of Award post?...Sorry I cant help it :)!

So....I received another award! :) Yahh! This lovely award was given to me by the wonderful Keenya over at Golden Mind! She is HILARIOUS! Seriously. She doesnt blog as much as I would like to read...but I do love her writtings when she posts! :) If you havent checked her out...Gone head and do that NOW! & Follow her on twitter...good entertainment.. :)! Anywho, I'm lazy and hate following rules! But, This time I'll try to switch it up...give it to some new bloggers or ones I find just off the wall different! :) So babies dont feel offended if I dont award you.Ok, I'm timing myself to see how long  I take to do this post. Following the rules..which include awarding 7 people with the award...and telling 7 facts about me! :) Ok, so here goes.
7 Random Facts about me:
  •  I recently realized I'm a tad bit stuck up. I know I shouldnt look at people and think they are beneath me...but I do sometimes. So sue me?..I'm workin' on it! Promise!
  • I love feeling useful. Like helping people out with things...I makes me feel so good.
  • I'm REALLY mean. And a tad bit psychotic! I got it from my mother...I like to think Im a little less crazy than she is! :)
  • This whole not havin' sex thing....pshhh, shit starting to seriously fuck with my mind! Yea, Im pretty sure I will be considered an "addict" in the future. Pretty damn sure! :)
  • I'm frustrated with this whole going natural thing already. My edges get ridiculous. But I have to keep tellin myself that I can do this! [Tips & stuff would be greatlt accepted! :)]
  • I always think Im better when Im not in a relationship..but I'm pretty sure its when I'm  in one. But being single has really helped me evaluate and better myself! :)!
  • Black is my favorite color! Purple is my secondary!

Re-reading the rules from her page..I totally did that wrong. Was supposed to tell 7 things I love...well that took 12 oh well! lol, Random facts are better! :)

Ok...and finally the award goes to :
Moe over at You know you dead azz wrong
With love___starz over at with love,starz
Chanel over at The Rainbow Room
Simone and Cynthia over at The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly
Enigma Jones over at Life and Times of a Trifling Chick
Jennifer Wilmer over at Inside JStar's Head
Leila over at Black Girl With Long Hair

It's soo many other Kreative blogs but it took me 1hour and 30 minutes to do this whole post. Smh, then it actually disappered..I was efinetly about to flip the hell out! lol..anywho Enjoy. You dont have to follow the rules or none of that nonsense! Thanks for following me everyone! :)  Until next time...Toodles! :)

Friday, December 11

I just dont understand...


So this situation is really bothering me. I mean it's not my situation but I just can’t wrap my mind around the whole thing. SO...I'm going to share a personal story. Maybe too personal for a blog?...but here goes. So I have a guy cousin. This guy cousin who happens to be gay. There is a story behind it all...or at least where it all started. And sadly it starts in our family. When my guy cousin, we'll call him Dre, when Dre was younger [about 4 or 5] one of my MUCH older cousins started to molest him. A cousin who also happens to be male...but doesn’t claim to be gay. He molested him for about 3-4 years. Sick...right? Dre decided to keep quiet about this issue until about 3 years ago. And even then he didn’t make it public. His mother overheard him talking on the phone to my sister about someone in our family touching him...asking whether he should say something or not. And from there...things got crazy. It came out that our older cousin was taking him in one of my great-grandmothers backrooms and...Well yea. We all were basically raised in that house...while our parents were in their partying phase. Anywho when my aunt found out, my mother was the first person she called. And it went from there. My mother let the rest of the family know, everyone was outraged. I found out while I was out one night...ruined my whole night and I was definitely ready to find and cut that nasty ass nigga up.'s that serious. So were my mother, my grandmother, and my sister. [Notice I didn’t say my aunt--his mother!] Someone let him know that he was being looked he went into hiding for a while. My mother put up flyers EVERYONE...our homemade child molester flyers with his picture on it. Later...he had the nerve to show up at a family gathering. When he did all hell broke loose. My granny pulled out her gun and they had to calm her down. She was cussing all types of things at him.[Oh, P.S- My family is hella crazy!] After they calmed her down my mother confronted him. Asking why the fuck he bothered to show up...seeing as to how he wasn’t family and how he was dead to her. And he started popping off at the mouth talking shit sayin he aint do shit and he gone go where he want to. Why he tried that woman...well I have no clue. She came after him with a long metal pipe. She started calling him all types of names and got one good hit with the pipe across his back. He took off running with my momma on his ass. My sister jumped up and so did I ready to help. And everyone else in my family grabbed my mother and told him to leave. My mom was pissed wondering why the hell that let him get away. She had plans...he would definitely not be alive it were up to her. Or me! Smh! I think that’s some dirty nasty ass shit. Done right under my nose to one of my closest cousins. No...We were definitely out for blood. Now let me rewind...that same nasty ass nigga who molested him had molested one of my female cousins around the time he was messing with Dre. She was older [14or15]; she told my mother after it happened twice. They locked the doors in my great grannys house and let all my older men cousin whoop his ass something severe...damn near killing him. And after a while...somehow he had got back good with the family until Dre's story came out. So he did it before...!

 Now the situation itself is sick...but the fact that after all of this Dre's mother can hate him baffles my mind. After the story and all the drama she became a total bitch to him. I mean she did some hardcore shit...she hated, correction...she hates him. With a passion and there is nothing you can tell me to change my mind. She started calling him all types of faggots, gay nasty niggas, and all other types of shit. She started treating him like an outcast...and I just don’t like that shit. Recently his younger sister was complaining to my aunt about how Dre never talks to her and blah blah blah. When they have NEVER had a sister/brother relationship. NEVER! Anywho when they started to discuss it in detail his mother said its hurting his sister that they don’t talk...and she said another reason his sister was probably hurting was the fact that he was gay. She said “Even though it’s not discussed that’s another reason. It's affecting her and’s not just affecting you...What you do affects us too." She said this yelling of course. And when she asked his sister was that the reason that lil wanch had the nerve to shake her head yea. I mean what the fuck does that have to do with them at this point?...I'm pissed that she is treating him like this and that she has SUCH a huge issue with him being gay when SHE was the one who actually grabbed my mother so she wouldn’t hit his molester again. SHE protected him. What the fuck type of shit is that? I mean really she lost all my respect I once had for her. She treats him like it’s his fault.[When I have a child] If my child were to come out and tell me they were gay, I'd be perfectly fine with it. It's just their lifestyle. I would never disown my child for it nor treat them worse. NEVER. AND if my child told me a family member molested them best believe my number one priority would be to find a way to kill that nigga and get away with it.! I just don’t understand where her mind possibly is to be acting this way...and I don’t like it. Anywho until next time...Toodles!

Another Award? ...They really love me :)!

Hello lovlies! :) you can see I got another award! About a week ago..I'm late, so sue me?lol! Anywho..I was awarded this award by two lovely bloggers. The first was the wonderful Supastarrr over at Supastarrr, the co-ed! She is definitely one of my favorite bloggers! I loveeee her blog! :) It is hilarious and its always wonderful to see her point of view. The other was a recent discovery. The lovely Ms. Leiominala over at Leiomi Nala's Corner! [How do you prononce your name ma'am?]! I love her blog as well. On it she shares a lot of random tidbits. Some cute,funny, and just entertaining things! So if you havent checked these two lovely's out...Do so NOW! :)

And the award goes to....................*DRUMROLL*
Neesh B. Fly over at The Real Dish
Sylvia over at Photography by Me
Khaki over at Not All Baltimore Chicks are Stupid [My cousin was outraged I gave this award..based on your Nikki Minaj He is a die hard fan. Yes, HE! :)]
Ro over at Love, Faith and Hope
Juicy Carter over at Juicy Carter
Keenya over at Golden Mind
E Dot Dizzy over at E Dot Dizzy
Lalaliybean over at DESSERT or disaster
She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
Cook The Poet over at Musik&Soul
Secretia over at Secret Story Time
her. over at A swirl of My World
Darling Nikky& Kia Poison over at Tasteless Diamonds

AND of coarse back to Supastarr and Leiomi Nala!
There are rules to this award and I honestly hate following the rules. It takes forever. This post took me about 2 hour to complete..maybe Im slighly off?lol..who knows...anywho ya'll dont have to follow the rules. Just enjoy! :)
Thanks to all my wonderful followers. Thanks for taking the time out to read my thoughts..I really do love and appreciate you all! :) ok..Toodles!

Sunday, December 6

Dear Cowboys:

I'm tired. Really tired. I'm in my room....studying! It's finals week. & all I have is one more day of this..and I'm out of here. SO I'll be spending my night studying until I fall asleep. I just HAD to do this post really quick. If you dont like football, this is probably going to bore the hell out of you...Sorry?! Anywho As most of you have read...I'm a HUGE Dallas Cowboys fan! I'm one of those die-hard fans. And tonight...tonight I almost let them go. We had a game against the Giants. Smh, I had all kinds of big hopes for us. The score was 24-31. Obviously not in our favor. I wouldnt be so sad about it really if....our next two games werent killer. I can honestly say for the first time all season I have some serious doubts in how these games are going to go. Would you like to know who the competition is?...The Chargers & The Undefeated Saints. [*sigh*] I can only try to remain hopeful for them.

Dear Cowboys:
Tonight...Tonight I was extremly dissapointed in you boys. I watched the game in extreme anticipation for you to do well. And failed to do so. I am tired of constantly having my heart strings tugged by you guys. One week you do well, and the other yall start to pull silly stunts. [*sigh*]. Don't get me wrong, i understand we win some ,we lose some. ANd we have lost 4 this season. Which isnt bad.You know I just want the best for you guys..right? I just want to see my babies succeed.These upcoming games might be a little tough, but regardless I am going to put my heart back on the line for you all. Practice hard, stay focused..and be SMART. Can you do that for me...please? Ok...Well, Good Luck babies. I know you can do this.
Love, Robyn's that serious..! Anywho i need to get back to studying. I received 2 more awards :)! I'm reallly happy about this. I'll do this post after all my tests tomorrow to accept and thank them. TOODLES! :)

Thursday, December 3

Just another Simple Bitch & Her Barbie Idolization!

So I just wanted to share my fb "debate " with this girl. She made a status that said :
And yes...I felt the need to comment and answer her question. i felt compelled to share my opinion. I am copying and pasting the debate below. And to keep her identity concealed I've changed her name to Simple Barbie Bitch! :) Enjoy!

RoByn VaLentine: ...Because being a doll is superficial. Being compared to one is not a compliment. Barbies are just that can be used and tossed away when the person matures. Plastic is easy to destroy as well!
[She deleted a post here it said : I have to disagree. Barbie is a good role model.]
RoByn VaLentine: Maybe for a child. For a grown woman..No, she is not. Barbie has no failure to learn from. Just things that are given to her. That isnt the way things work..and mature women should look up to women who have worked harder to achieve a name ...besides aspiring to be like a plastic doll!
Simple Barbie Bitch: & tHAt GiVES U tHE RitE 2 HAtE ON HER??? i tHiNK NOt. & PLAStiC iS GREAt...itS DURABLE & VERSAtiLE. itS StRONGER tHAN GLASS. itS WHAtEVER U NEED it 2 B.
RoByn VaLentine: lol. I dont understand how people can "hate" on a plastic childs toy. People express their dislike for the way tht women aspire to be like a toy...not necessarily "hating on" barbie.! She has her own house,car, career...because it was handed to her, she was made like that. It's all unrealistic. I just dont get why grown women want to be like a child's toy. A toy that the child speaks for, dresses, moves,...and grows out of. I just dont get the fascination.
RoByn VaLentine:lol. Because she is not real. Wanting to be a barbie is really a superficial shallow thing. Because if a WOMAN has a career, a job, a home all on her own and is not Barbies size,complextion, have perfect hair...what does that make her? Just another sucessful woman that young women should look up to. A woman who has actually worked for hers..a REAL woman. && In all reality no one looks like Barbie but Barbie. Barbies dont come in ALL colors, or all sizes. Barbies porportions are impossible to gain...Barbie doesn't talk, she lives in a box...she can be purchased for about $20 dollars! But grown women want to be like her?Smh. Women dont go to college saying " I want to be a Barbie...let me go to college and get an education." They have better REAL role models in their life. Ones that actually can tell a story and exude sucess.!
RoByn VaLentine: & being "Pretty and Plastic" can ALWaYS FADE! ALWAYS be easily taken away. Although I dont know why anyone would want to be plastic it not good enough to be made of flesh? Not good enough to find real women to look up to?
RoByn VaLentine: Lol. I understand the "metaphor"..It's just soooooo many flaws in it! But like you said "it is what it is"! Keep believing, "Barbie"! :)
Simple Barbie Bitch: ALWAYS. :-)

See how nice I was to this girl?! I wanted to call her a simple bitch sooooooo bad! Anywho, Im sick of this Barbie shit...really! Grown ass women trying to be Barbie need to kill that shit and grow the fuck up! Ughh..and that's my opinion on that. Until next time, Toodles!

Wednesday, December 2

Don't go bound to find some shit!


So, I pretty much deserted my blog for a week. But it's ok...I'm back now! :) I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving! Anywho I'm up early listening to a local radio station for their PPP [People Power Pole]! A woman sent in a question saying: My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 years and he left his cell phone in my car and I went through his text messages. I saw several texts between him and a female who he invited over to his place for breakfast. [It's been about 3 months]I haven't said anything to him about it because I know I was wrong for snooping but it’s all bothering me. Power listeners, Should she confront her boyfriend about his text messages to other women?

So I'm probably gone make some people mad on this one...but really who cares! :)! Sooo, I don’t honestly give a shit if she confronts him. I'm more worked up about the first part of her statement. "He left his cell phone in my car and I went through his text messages.”! .....Dumb bitch. Most women agree on going through their men's cell phones and shit. They say their supposed to trust him enough to go through it and not find anything. But if you snooping in the first place...really, where is the trust?! I don’t agree with going through your boyfriend/girlfriends cell phones behind their back. In fact...I hate when people do that shit. I hate when people tell me “Well I went through his phone, and I found out he was texting some bitch calling her "baby" and "boo"" and all that other dumb bullshit. Like the saying goes if you go looking for drama....shit you gone find some. Regardless. So why even put yourself in that situation? Why put yourself in the position to possibly be hurt because of your secret trust issues. Just because the phone is sitting there does not give you the privilege to snoop through his shit. I understand he is in the wrong as well...because well she actually found some dirt. [If you gone do dirt in a relationship make sure you cover all those damn tracks...even the ones damn near invisible. Erase the inbox, sent box, deleted messages...hell even the draft. Erase all history! ] Anywho...I’m not focusing on the man because if the woman didn’t go through his phone she wouldn’t even be in her situation. She should have kept her nosey ass woman’s intuition to herself...ESPECIALLY if she wasn’t gone do shit about it. She went through his phone 3 months ago! 3 fuckin' months ago and still aint said shit to this dude. But it’s bothering her? Bitch please...if you bold enough to go through his shit you might as well gone head and cause a scene right then and there. And end the shit. End it so it won’t be "bothering you" three months later.
I will not let guys that I date go through my text messages. WILL NOT. I always establish in the beginning how silly I think it is to go through people cell phones. They always agree at the time and say they feel the same. But then when the relationship changes they want to be all in my shit. ! And that's a no no. That’s a hell no. And they always get mad when I will not let them go through my phone. Always think I'm hiding something... [Oh I always keep my shit locked so it’s no sneaking behind my back and checking my text messages and other nonsense.]! But I'm never hiding anything...just trying to avoid drama at all cost necessary. Prime Example to why I don’t let guys I date go through my shit: I was with an ex boyfriend one day after school. Senior year. He was holding my phone and I didn’t notice that it was unlocked. I was talking to him not even realizing he was browsing through my phone. Now I wasn’t gone flip out or anything because like I said he wasn’t gone find any REAL dirt. While he had the phone a guy friend of mine texts me. “So what you doing?"....Innocent text. [I was in no way interested in the guy textin my phone...we were just cool. Funny ass dude!] So he flips out. Why is [insert name here]--he knew the dude, he went to school with us--texting you? I'm like wtf? You know we cool...I can't help who text me shit. He was mad...thought I was talking to dude. So he sent back “I’m with my boyfriend [insert bf's name here]. I love him so much."...Um, dude seriously? Why feel that insecure. Another incident happened like that as well but it said “What’s up boo?"! Now I can’t help wtf these niggas decide to text me. So I just keep my phone to myself. One time my ex confiscated it...because I wouldn’t let him go through it on an earlier occasion. SO he confiscated my phone when I left the room. I noticed soon as I walked back in the room but didn’t say anything. I was going to let him go through it, if he found an “What’s up sexy?"...that’s his fault. I wasn’t doing any wrong. And he gave it back 20 minutes later and said “Here I was going to go through it...but I might be hurt if I found something. And I'm not gone do that to myself." I was like...ok, dude think I'm cheating just because I wouldn’t let him snoop in my phone the first time. No...! I just don’t want arguments started over niggas that mean NOTHING to me because they decide to add "boo", "baby”, “sexy", and all that other lame shit to the end of their casual texts.
ANYWHO back to the woman's problem. After 3 months, no I don’t think she should confront him. She should have done that shit 3 months ago. Leave that shit alone. You still either leave or deal with it. Get her insecure ass somewhere and sit down. People do dumb shit. Don’t snoop and you won’t find shit. It’s like when dumb brauds go and hack their boyfriends’ facebook account...and read all the shit and go crazy when they find a flirting inbox message. Smh at yo dumb ass....shouldn’t have been looking for anything. & Smh at his dumb ass for not covering shit up. People are saying "Well she wouldn’t have known he was pursuing other women if she didnt go through his phone." Well...if her ass aint doing shit but sitting idle anyway, she didn’t need to know! DONT GO THROUGH PEOPLES SHIT! [Especially if you know yo NIGGA is dumb and isn’t going to cover his tracks]Ok, this is a long rant....Ladies; Men...Tell me what you think. Until next time...Toodles!

Wednesday, November 25

Happy Turkey Day! :)


So, right now I’m in between cooking turkeys and 3 dishes of cornbread. Yummy! Oh how I LOVE cooking. I never really realized how much it calms me; it’s like a stress reliever. Anywho, today I've been sooo busy. Don’t you hate when you’re preparing for an event and you do all your shopping early just to avoid the packed stores...and still end up having to go when the lines are around the fuckin' corner. Ughhh, that's definitely how I felt today, at Wal-Mart...Too many people getting their shit all late when I have 2 things in my hand. Then people look like they be ready to fight over the last of shit...Smh.
So people always ask that same question every thanksgiving. What are you thankful for? I never do the whole “What am I thankful for question?"... I mean I honestly don’t even think Thanksgiving should be a holiday based on the circumstances that it came about. However I do love spending it with my extended family; I love huge family gatherings!
While I'm sitting here waiting for my cornbreads to brownen [If that’s even a word] I wonder why people lie about being in love with someone. Someone asked me “SO you've never lied about loving someone? Ever?" And I was appalled that they even asked. I quickly answered no, why would anyone do shit like that. Why would you lie about loving someone? Then I realized...hmm, yea I definitely have. But I didn’t know I was lying at the time. Meaning I thought I was in love with this guy when I kept telling him I loved him. When really I was in love with what he could do for me...not so much him. In fact I started to find him very annoying, but the fact that he did whatever I wanted...I loved it. No questions asked [Which I totally hate now, people need to have minds of their own]. Hmm, I feel bad for letting him think I cared that much about him...but it wasn’t intentional. What about the people who do it intentionally. Knowing damn well they have no feeling of love but saying "I love you" just to string the other person along; just to fuck with their mind. Why do that? A guy told me he used to throw the words around because that’s the quickest way to get a girl to give her bringing love into the equation. He said the girl becomes's a "leg spreader". Why mess with emotions just to get a little pussy though? That pisses me off sooo much. People do some dirty ass shit...and fucking with someone’s emotions hurts more than physical pain if you ask me. Anywho let me get back to my food!

I hope everyone enjoys their Thanksgiving! Eat plenty of food and have plenty of family time!
Until next time...Toodles!

Tuesday, November 24

Just Wondering...

Today...well today taught me never to take Nyquil and doctor prescriptions together. Lol. I slept for around 19 hours...and when I woke up I swore it was around noon. Wrong, I woke up at 9:00...p.m! Missed 2 classes and still feel like hell. But I digress. Thanks for all the wonderful "Get Well" wishes. I really do appreciate it. I made my blog rounds, some of you post 2 million things a day making it IMPOSSIBLE for me to catch! But even if I dont comment on EVERYthing, know that I do read EVERY blog I follow! The blogs I follow are like a replacement to my TV. They keep me caught up on current events AND keep me highly entertained! I was just thinking a few things over, and wondering is what I'm doing a waste of time.

Have you ever wished you could get a glimpse of your future life? Not to be older or anything....but to see how certain things work out. Like when you start a relationship and wonder if this is going to be the you ever wish you had a glimpse just to see if he'd be in that future of yours?! Or a glimpse to make sure that what you’re doing gets you to where you want to be. To make sure that you become someone...! I wish I could have a glimpse, a glimpse to where I’m completely stable/graduated college/started a career/ and possibly a family. But I guess having that glimpse would make things easy...or maybe more difficult. If you had a chance to see your future would you take it? That question is similar to “If you had a chance to know the exact date you die...would you want to know?"! My answer to that would have to be No. I'd obsess with things I need to get done before that date and my life would be on a complete time schedule. I'd surely stress myself out trying to squeeze it all in. Every second would be life changing...and when that day came. I'd surely go crazy and have a COMPLETE breakdown. Maybe if I had a glimpse into my future I'd be the same. I'd change what I was doing to compensate with whatever it is I saw. Hmmm...It's best that I make my mistakes and slowly learn from them. Its best that I grow, things are best the way they are...No premonitions needed! Ok, just a daily off the wall thought. What about you all. If you had the chance to see a glimpse of your future...would you take it? OR... If someone knew the EXACT date you'd die, would you want them to tell you?! Why or Why not...Until next time babes, Toodles!

Sunday, November 22

Quick Weekend Recap


Quick little weekend that I won’t feel like I’m deserting my blog.

Wow, I'm at 50 followers! I'm soooo happy! Hello new followers! :)! Welcome to my crazy highly opinionated blog. Ok, so this Weekend was pretty good. Went home, spent time with the family. I saw New Moon with my sister and best friends. Reem was being her normal self---Ally was being bi-polar; which I guess is her normal self. The movie was off the fuckin' chain. Seriously, if you haven’t seen it I suggest you go watch it. Damn good movie. And Taylor with his fine ass...Mmmm, shit I'd take him over Robert P. any day. Anywho...Oh before we went to the movies, we stopped by McDonald's. We were sitting down eating and I was applying lip gloss. My sister asks "Is that the lip gloss that broke out that boy [my ex]" and I say "Nope, it was the cover girl lip gloss"...and Karimah says “Broke him out where...On his penis?"! When I say I was beyond shocked that she just said this in front of my little sister who I DO NOT discuss my sex life or the existence of one to--it is an understatement. I was like " What the fuck...No, on his mouth."! I was sooo uncomfortable...but I'm laughing so hard about it now. Anywho over the weekend some form of sickness has attacked my ass. I don’t really know what it is...but I feel like death. Ughhh. I’m having like heat flashes...while my body is shivering and stuff. And my head is pounding...Ughhh, I better be better before Thanksgiving. For once I'm actually sleepy. I don’t usually sleep at night...because I can't, my body usually won’t allow me...but I guess this medicine has me drowsy. Ok, life story. Oh yea...hvae I mentioned Im a HUGE Cowboys fan?! I dont think I have...! We took another win today [barely], but a win is a win! Anywho.I hope yall's weekend went great. I have to make my blog rounds and catch up with you all tomorrow! I should be back to my shit talking self tomorrow. Until then...Toodles!

Friday, November 20

" Yea babe, you can fuck my best friend! " <--- PART 2!!! [Guest Blogger]

Ok, so the story on the post below is missing some parts that I didnt mention. And because of that I will post it from the sorce's opinion! She has the words directly from Amanda's mouth.  So, From the voice of Reem -My bestie- ::
*[My Commentary will be bracketed and shaded like such!]*

Sharing is definitely not caring…..It’s nasty as hell! Ladies Rule #1 of the Girl Code: Don’t fuck your friend’s ex, boo, plaything, dick on the side (I think that’s the same as plaything) etc.! It’s just nasty as hell! [Nasty and trashy as hell!] Now a few people who know my situation might call me a hypocrite for sayin this. a couple of years ago, I broke the rule and I started talking to this guy that my friend was also talking to…but had I felt that he and I didn’t have a connection I NEVER would’ve talked to him! Anywho me and the girl are on cordial terms...blah blah whatever! [Lol, they situation was way different from this bullshit ass fuckery…I promise!]Now back to the topic! Here’s the scenario: Andre texted Amanda and pretty much said, “Is it ok if I fuck your best friend Yoyo?” Amanda replied, “Sure go ahead!” Now in my mind Amanda’s response was this: “Sure you can fuck my friend I don’t have any morals and she’s a hoe so you might get lucky!” [Lmao, couldnt have put it better myself!]Now a little history on Andre&Amanda they fucked around for a while about a year ago and Amanda had feelings for him, she was even about to fight her “friend” Shannon for getting “drunk” and fucking him! Shannon and her got over it and she continued to fuck Andre….Smh, these hoes today. So you guys can imagine how shocked I was to find out that she gave Yoyo and Andre permission to fuck! IN THE SAME DAMN HOUSE! Her excuse was that she no longer had feelings for Andre and he could do as he pleased! In my opinion a man is only going to do what you allow him to do! So if she says yea you can fuck my friend, he’s gonna pull his dick out and get to work! Now Yoyo was completely wrong! When Amanda came to her with this she should’ve said no I will not fuck him…I don’t get down like that! She protested for a few minutes before eventually giving in…Smh….stupid hoe! [Meaning Amanda actually talked her best friend into sleeping with her ex…wtf? I didn’t think it was possible for these hoes to get dumber.] Also in my opinion Yoyo probably wanted to fuck him from the very beginning! Now a hoe is gonna be a hoe! So if Amanda said it was ok then I guess she thought it was ok. No matter how many ways you flip the story, well Amanda said it was ok, he was just a piece of dick to her, he’s to blame, blah blah everybody was in the wrong! I believe that Amanda and Yoyo have serious self-esteem issues! I mean telling your friend she can fuck your old dick on the side is not ok! Definitely not! And agreeing to fuck your friend’s dick on the side means that you have low self-esteem and you need your ass whooped! [Girl let this had been me and you, we would have been two knocking bitches!] I don’t care if his dick was 9 inches and he had a double-jointed tongue! NO NO NO! UGH! Amanda has a problem with talking about how good her sex partner’s sex game is! If you know your friend is a hoe, don’t tell her how good your man is licking and deep stroking the kitty! She’s only going to wonder how it would feel to have him do the same things to her! [Ladies that don’t already have common sense enough to know this, this is some real ass shit...keep it between you and him if ya girl is a hoe!]These girls definitely don’t live by the girl code! Yoyo needs to go to the gynecologist and get tested! (NO WALLS) [Hell yeah, She one of the bitches that could go on a shopping spree if she had a dollar for every nigga that done hit.]She is most definitely goin' goin' gone guys….i know this for a fact! [If yall don’t know, when a girl is goin', she's a hoe fuckin with a lot of niggas!!& to think me and that trick were fucking the same guy for a LONG as time, Smh I need to slap my damn self.]Sigh….Amanda needs to get a grip on reality…Sharing is not caring…it only causes more problems…even though she said she was ok with it….deep down she probably isn’t! [If she truly is ok with it something wrong with her ass…well something deeper than her OBVIOUS issues!]Andre…well he needs to get his ass tested too! [Ughhh, definitely...I hope they used some damn condoms.]And he better not even think to ask her if he can play with my kitty! DISMISSED! BLOOP! Thank you guys for reading! Hope you enjoyed! Kisses!

[LMAO, I love how she put this whole thing! Best friends think alike. Dismissed. Bloop! Lmao!  Thoughts and Comments knowing the added information?! ]

Thursday, November 19

" Yea babe, you can fuck my best friend! "

Ok, so I was really about to take a MUCH needed nap...but I got some shit to say. Ok, this isn’t my usual rant on shit I see on facebook/YouTube/other blogs...etc. Nope, this is some real life bullshit. Ok. So there are these two girls I went to school with. [I've known them since middle school and elementary] These girls are....wait, since this is real life shit I have to use "codenames" for these silly ass brauds-YoYo and Amanda-. Ok, so these two girls are friends. Like close knit friends, they even live together. Yea it's that serious. So one is skinny as hell and the other...well she aint. So for the sake of their identity well call the skinny one YoYo, and the other one Amanda. Ok so dig this, YoYo fucked Amanda's ex boo last night. We will call him Andre....! And that’s not even the part I’m really concerned about...there is more. Amanda told Andre he could fuck Yoyo and Yoyo agreed. [Giving this nigga permission to fuck her Best friend] Shocked yet...well it gets worse. Andre and Yoyo fucked in the house [where Amanda also resides] and she could hear them fucking...........!

Bruh [I don’t even use that word] that’s some dumb ass messy bullshit.
Anyone who doesn’t have a problem with some bullshit ass fuckery like this is just out of their damn mind. What the fuck is up with these bitches. I mean...Hold on, let me give you a little background on Andre and Amanda. They were doing their thing for a long while. She had feelings about him or whatever...but yall know, some shit just don’t work out. But they remain cool. Now last year one of Amanda’s other close friends, we will call her Shannon, fucked Andre too. Amanda didn’t give her "permission" and was furious at first when she found out...but quickly accepted it and marked it off as nothing. [She and Shannon are still close as ever...if not closer!]What the fuck? Dude seriously what the hell is wrong with yo ass to associate with hoes [YES HOES] who would fuck your ex-boo thang. Even with permission? So basically Andre done fucked 2 of your closest friends and yo dumb silly ass. I understand if dude was JUST dick...did I just lie like that? Yea...I wouldn’t understand it even if he was just eatin her pussy. You don’t go " Aye he was only eatin me, we can all share that fye ass head." Hell naw bitch.
Let's switch this whole thing to if I were Amanda. Number one: Shannon would have been cut. You aint gone fuck with my ex and try to be my best friend. No ma'am, and when I ask yo ass about it you lie to my face until wayyy later on. Bitch please! Shannon would know not to speak two words to my ass EVER again in life. Grimy bitch. Next: If Andre asked me permission to fuck one of my BEST friends...his ass would have got cut. No. First his ass would have got laughed at [Giving him a chance to correct his mistake by pretending to laugh with me and say he was "just playin"]! Ooooweee, if ya'll knew how truly disgusted I am about the whole little messy situation. Anywho after I cut his ass or he corrected his mistake then that would be it. It wouldnt have been no "Yoyo fucking Andre while I can hear them" situation. What does Amanda possibly think of her friends? what the fuck do her friends think of her? Grimey ass bitches sharing niggas....its way to many dicks in this world for that nonsense! Like fareal! What makes this ok with them? They can all sit around and compare how good or how garbage Andre dick is. Aw yea that’s cool? Where the fuck they do that at? Andre getting the best of the situation...wonder how he feels when he walks in a room with them, knowing he done fucked 3 bestfriends. [& shit if I were Andre, if they let me--I'd do the same shit...Smh at myself, I'd be one triflin ass nigga]
Clearly, I don’t think to highly of these girls. I mean they party with, but as actual friends...yea I don’t think any of them really know the definition of a friend. Or if they have ever had a real one. Because I know for a fact real friends don’t pull bullshit as moves like that. Now me and Yoyo have history. Terrible unwanted history that proves just how much she doesn’t know what "a friend" is. Silly ass. !
[I typed this way earlier today...waiting for an anonymous source to give her quotes so that I could insert her opinion..but she never did, Smh...!] this ok? Would you ever give your best friend permission to sleep with your ex? Or...if your bestfriend slept with your ex behind your back, Would ya'll still be friends?...Thoughts and comments! Ok, Until next time.Toodles.

Wednesday, November 18

You wanna put that WHERE?

So I've been trying for like 30 minutes to get these 5 videos from Facebook on this post. BUT, I can’t...all I can do is include the link. [This will be at the bottom of the post]These guys have made a little show on facebook. It's HILARIOUS. Seriously, the shit it just too funny and I wanted to share it with my followers to get your comments. [WARNING: The following post will get a little nasty...vulgar, and if you don’t like reading about things dealing with sex...take yo ass on to the next blog. Still here? Ok, you've been warned!]Anywho in their latest episode they talked about swallowing nutt! And they said if you don’t swallow then it's their right to nutt on the girls face.

Wait for it.......
Dude...are you serious? Now in this blog I try not to discuss sex so much because...well hell because I have some nosey people that I know who follow my blog. And I don’t want them all to know my business. And sex should be left behind closed doors. Left in the room with those two people. Anywho...I wish a nigga would. Like fareal. I don’t have too many limitations during sex, but that one...that one is a HELL NO. Aint gone never ever happen thing. Ugh. I’m not going to comment on the swallowing part. BUT if a female doesn’t swallow and the guy makes it his business to nutt on her face without permission...Hold on, Rewind that. If I don’t swallow and a guy makes it his business to nutt on MY face without permission [which they would never have] they better expect some damn drama. I’m getting up cutting a nigga, and the dick is gone be the first victim. This whole "cum on a bitch face" thing has always bothered me. When I watch flicks and see that shit I always have to turn away. Its sooo...Ugh, just ugh. I cringe when I see it, thinking "Ughhh, if all that was on my face...Ugh."! That's something I aint gone EVER get with. I understand making sacrifices and shit, but even if my husband wanted to do that, I couldn’t go there. No sir, you will not spill your "baby batter" [As Simone calls it] on my face. Hell no. It gets in their eyes and shit...Ugh, why do people get off seeing that? Guys? Ladies who will let it happen? Why in the hell is that a turn on?!
 Anywho they also talked about how one of the top ten females lies is “I don’t suck dick.". ! I laughed sooo hard on that episode. And I hear that soo often. Now I don’t see a problem with oral. At all. But there are a lot of women who say they don’t suck dick or wont when they are in public...but soon as they behind closed doors...SMH! I almost understand where they coming from when they deny it though. "Dicksucker" is used as a degrading term. So if called one the girl automatically jumps to her defense by saying " I don’t" and blah blah blah blah. Ugh, I hate to hear it though. I mean I’m sure some of them aren’t lying...but the majority who say it...they are. Now, dont get me wrong. Some people will say " Lady's dont air their buisness". And I'm with you on that...100%. but Not answering or responding to that type of question and lying about it is totally different. [Avoid the question all together, people dont need to be in your bedroom...but dont lie about it!!]I remember once senior year this girl in class asked me and the bestie a question. She called us over to the table and said "I’m trying to tell him....Tell him black girls don’t suck dick. Don’t ya'll think that’s nasty?"...Me and the bestie looked at each other. "Well, I don’t see a problem with it." “Me either"...She looked at us and was like “Ughhh. Well, something wrong with yall, Black girls dont do that. Something wrong with us? Um...cause we being real? Because we don’t see a problem with it...something wrong with us. Where in the hell did she get "Black girls don’t suck dick."? Why is that broken down to a race thing? SO white girls are the ones known for sucking dick? Is it because they won’t easily lie about it like black women? Just sayin'....! But I get where the ones who lie about it are coming from. One time a guy friend made a comment to a bestie about a note she wrote on facebook. In the note it had a line that said something about someone complementing her head skills...about how her head game was cold or some shit. [But the note was about love...and cheating...I think? She deleted it because some drama came from it.] And she asked the guy friend did he like her note and he said “It let everybody know you suck dick.”! Dude? Seriously...that wasn’t even the point of the note...and so fuckin’ what!! Yo girl suck yo dick on a daily and you brag about it...but when she write makes her a bad person. Yea, I kinda get where girls come from when they deny that they do it. Because some people will look down on them...even some guys. Bullshit ass hypocrites. It's just sex...grow the fuck up. Anywho, this post is no offense to anything people decide to do or don’t decide to do sexually. Just letting out a few of my opinions. Yeap...until next time...TOODLES! :)

[Before clicking the links: They do discuss adult content in the like I said above if you do like hearing about sex dont click on them. And ladies they do use the word "bitch"...some might find them disrespectful...! WARNED!]

Episode 1
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5

Tuesday, November 17

Wanna read another view on Cheating?

Ok, So quick post.
If you had the time to read my post Re: In the mind of a cheater, I'd love for you guys to go check out a similar yet different view on cheating. Ms. RO over at Love, Faith, And Hope wrote a response! [She herself has never cheated! :)]...Go check out her opinion on Cheating -->*HERE*<-- ! I enjoyed it, Hope you guys will too! :) Ok, Toodles!

I'm a star in my, Another award...{ :) }!


Guess what?....Yeap by the title you can see I got another award. I got the " I love your blog award". Isn't this so sweet? Yes, My second blog award! I'm sooo happy! :) This blog award was given to me by Neesha B. Fly over at *The Real Dish*! [<----ViSiT HER]! Her blog is a mixture of celebrity news,gossip, current events, music, fashion, arts...all with the twist of her opinion. Very interesting..not so typical like a lot of Celebrity Blogs! I love hers! Anywho Im rambling, go check her out...NOW!

Monday, November 16

"Um...Who are you?--Ignore that ass"

Ok, so I have a question. Why do random ass females add you as a friend on facebook? I mean really...what is their purpose. Usually I'll just ignore their request because in my mind if they are adding me I'm always like there is an underlying reason. For example: Today some girl sent me a request to be my friend. [In my mind, I concocted a whole story as to why she was probably adding me.] “Wtf? Who is this girl trying to be all up in my business? Hmm...Let’s check out her profile and see if I know her... [checking profile]...Nope. Don’t know her. Well it says she went to school at [Insert a local high school in my hometown], I only know a couple of girls from that school. One which I blocked from my profile. She probably adding me so that her and the girl can be all up in my shit. So that the girl I blocked has access to my business... Nope, decline that ass." <---Yeap, that’s the exact conversation that went on in my head. [...Don't judge me!] I always think they are adding me to be messy, to be nosey, and to be all up in my business. Mind you all that on facebook I have everything set to private. So if you’re not on my friends list and you see my name from someone else’s profile all you see is "Robyn Valentine" in black. You can’t see my profile picture; all you can do is send a message or a friend request. Now some random girl adding me as "Robyn Valentine"...Hmm? Is that not shady to yall. [For those who don’t know my last name is not Valentine---that’s just a 'joke' with some friends.] So why add me? Guys do this too, but I never think the same of the guys. I mean if I don’t know them I won’t add them anymore either because soon as I accept that request they send some lame ass shit to the inbox. But I always just mark the guys off, but the females?! Nope...I’m still trying to figure out why this recent girl tried to add me. I always want to message them and ask “Do I know you?"...just to see if someone is going to say “No, I saw you on someone else’s page and just wanted to be a nosey bitch." or " My homegirl dont like you and I just wanted to see who you were." Hmm, come to think of it…The reason I'm probably so on the fence about the whole situation is because I know why I add random girls I don’t know. Or why I used to. [Warning: This is an EXTREME psycho move]One time I went through my ex boyfriends list [while we were together]and added EVERYONE on his friend list that wasn’t on mine. Lol, I know that’s hella crazy but he was having wall conversations with to many people. And I wanted to see what he was saying to them, not what they were saying to him. And the only person who questioned my friendship was his cousin who lived out of state and was like “Um, do I know you?"...and I was like “Nope, just adding you from someone else’s friend list." Hmm, I’m sure she thought I was hella crazy...and she still accepted?! Hmm, crazy! Anywho, I've added girls that my friend’s exes are talking to or dating because I want to put a face with the girls my friends currently dislike. So that I can judge and see if he upgraded or not…lol! Being nosey….tisk tisk tisk. And don’t you hate it when a person you can’t stand tries to add you. Aren’t you like “Wtf? Now this bitch KNOW I don’t like her and her ass don’t like me...Why she tryna be childish--ignore that ass.” Lol, maybe that’s just my reaction. Do some girls add you sincerely to make new friends?!Just a random rant... [I have to stay off of facebook]---Toodles!
This has nothing to do with my topic. I just thought this was funny as hell! I love lamebook. If you need a laugh definetly go check it out! They find the DUMBEST shit on fb! :)

Sunday, November 15

Re: In the mind of "a cheater"

Ok, before I even state the topic at hand I know that throughout this post I will manage to sound like a complete hypocrite while contradicting almost every statement I make. But hopefully by the end of the post you will at least understand MY OPINION. ! Ok, so today I am basically responding to Bubbles over at  irant. idance. iwrite. She recently wrote a post titled "In the mind of a cheater"[See it *HERE*] and I would like to respond. I'm sure people will disagree...all the more reason to comment! :) ! She discussed why cheaters cheat and her whole point of view on cheating. Now I feel compelled to discuss mine. Now in no way do I condone cheating. At all, get that straight before I start to express any feeling on the topic.

So...Why do cheaters cheat? Why did I cheat? <--- [Her first question]
Well there are two reasons that cheaters cheat. It is either an emotional need or a physical need. People tend to say the reasons are based on the gender, but cheating is not to be narrowed down to a gender. Men cheat. Women cheat. People...People just cheat. Both reasons can be broken down into many things. The cheater could be lacking what they need from their partner emotionally: attention, affection, communication...etc. OR the total opposite. The cheater could be getting emotionally smothered by their partner where they just need room to breathe. Thus comes the third person [the person the cheater cheats with]. That person might give them all the compliments in the world, might make time for them when their partner seems to never have any. OR could be the one that doesn’t bother them, the one who gives them as much space as possible, an outlet when the person feels smothered in the relationship...etc. A physical need? The cheater's partner could be lacking in the sex department, isn’t willing to do certain things, just plain boring...etc. OR the person could LOVE their partner’s sex and just yearn for more, looking for "Ms. Right now","Ms. How I like it","Ms. No-strings". Basically being just to be fucking. I could go on forever and ever on reasons why people cheat. But moving on...Why did I cheat?
Hmmm, well like Ms.Bubbles said "I don’t know." I don’t know meaning...things were going well in the relationship but one night I slipped he wasn’t there and I was horny. Simple and as plain as that...meaning "It just happened." people always ask “How the fuck does that just happen?"...Well, you’re in a room with someone...your hormones are all over the place...and you know you want sex. [Right here is your place to be strong enough to walk away or like I was told "not put yourself in this situation in the first place"] But since I already had put myself there when the touching and shit started happening...IT JUST HAPPENED. Plain. Simple. I fought the urge...but still it happened. I asked the first person who cheated on me “What the fuck do you mean it just happened? Did I not cross your mind? Was it not enough to stop you from fucking her?"...and when I cheated I asked myself the same question. And sadly...I did think about him, I thought about him before, I thought about him during, I thought about him after...after while I cried. I thought about him the whole way. Why didn’t my thoughts stop me...why didn’t they stop me from hurting him? Because...I knew what I wanted, what it felt like I NEEDED that night to feel better. I knew that I was a bad person.
So why did I cheat?--Because that night I lacked self-control...because that night all I wanted was pleasure....and he was not there to give it to me.

Now people say once a cheater always a cheater. Well...I will not cheat again. Because it honestly destroyed me. It destroyed me as a person, and left me in a place where I never want to be again. It got to a point where I felt like I was begging him to stay with me "Give me another chance" and all that dumb bullshit I used to hate to see other girls do. And if you know know that that is nowhere in Robyn's character to be that typical bitch. Nowhere...But because I knew I was in the wrong...because I knew I had so much to contribute to the breakup I felt like it was my job to fix the pain, no matter if I had to beg and plead. “Let’s crawl back to love.” ...When really fuck that, I don’t advise any woman to go there...let it be, let him beg you. When I say I cried my life into a puddle, it's no joke. Seconds after the cheating he called me. It was 4 in the morning. He called saying “ weren’t going to call me to say goodnight?"...Immediately tears rolled down my face, it took everything out of me to not break down and tell him how much of a bad person I was...and how he deserved better. It took so much out of me. I was crying outside listening to him talk about how much he loved me...and that he was sitting waiting for me to call. And wtf was I doing? Fucking someone of no importance to me. Just for that temporary high. Temporary highs lead to drastic lows. Later when we broke up he was admitting how he cheated and how it was bothering him to keep secrets from me and how bad he felt...and I thought I owed him the same honesty. So I told him, it hurt him. I felt...words can’t describe that hurt. After asking me why did I cheat and me answering it just happened, he said “See, you’re not giving me a reason. You say it won’t happen again but how could I stop it from happening again if there isn’t reason. I mean you could have said 'because it was Tuesday' and I would make it my business to stay on the phone w/ you 24 hours on Tuesdays. But you not having a could I fix that? What about the next time you’re horny and I’m not there?"...Wow. All I could say was “It won’t happen again."...he made a valid point. He shut any apology that I ever gave down. If you didn’t have a reason...what would stop you from cheating the next time? Because next time I WILL have self control...I will always remember that cheating damn near destroyed me.
Her next question was: What if you [the person being cheated on] cheated? Wouldn’t you want your mate to take you back?
Basically put yourself in their shoes. Well I'll give you my scenario. Once he told me he cheated...I was willing to take him back. I was willing to work with him through the flaws...I was willing to be there, and would have been willing even if I hadn’t cheated. [Love makes you do and accept some dumb ass shit.]His reaction to this was " I don’t think anyone has showed me they loved me this much, maybe [enter ex girlfriend before me name here], but not even she showed that she loved me this much. One day I am going to marry you." Sounds like he was happy right?...Now minutes later after I confessed it all changed. “Bye Robyn, just bye." and "Since you look at cheating as not such a big idea idk if I would want to marry anyone like that." BAM! POW. And all those other action words that would describe what was being done to my heart at the time. I was so confused. I mean here I was ready to work with you through your problem [because you cheated well over one time] and you could not/would not accept my one time cheating. Damn, should've kept my mouth shut. I do think cheating is a big's a huge deal actually. Anywho, putting myself in my partners shoes since I've cheated before...Would I take someone else back if they cheat on me? Ask the person who cheated "If I cheated on you...would you take me back?" If they say yes...proceed to make up a story about how you cheated [make it seem as real as possible]...just to get their REAL reaction, and go from there. If he/she was actually willing to be there with you sincerely, tell them you lied to get their reaction. And maybe those who would accept you...MAYBE they deserve ONE more chance, those who are like fuck you...then fuck them!
"I can say that cheaters don't mean to cheat. We don't go out of our way to hurt the people who love us."- Bubbles
With all of that said...give me your opinion on this whole thing?! I'd love to hear both matter what! :)! Toodles!