No thanks, I'll pass on being the "skinny" bitch...

Yo.

Sooooo.....

I'm on a diet.
The HCG diet to be exact.
I've lost a total of 19 lbs in 23 days.
(Really I lost more, but I cheated and it came back...*shrugs*)

This is the day before I began the diet:

{When I finish the diet, I will post a picture in the same outfit...just to show the progress}
{Ohh....& I have box braids right now, I was obsessed with them so I gave them a go. I love them}
This diet is a very strict diet, but the results are phenomenal...google it for those who are interested.

Any who,  since being on this diet....the comments I've gotten. Smh.

People must think I'm one of those "big girls" who secretly want nothing more than this world to be skinny. And that couldn't be further from the truth.

Just because I am on a diet, does not mean I crave to be skinny.
I love my shape right now...my curves.
Why am I on a diet if I LOVE my shape?...
Simple.
I know that I have problem areas.
My arms, stomach/back area. They could use a little shrinkage, and this diet targets problem areas as such.

I don't want to lose a person.
I'm not trying to get back down to a size 3/6/8.
Shit, I haven't been a size 3 since 6th grade.
And looking back on old pictures, I hate the skinny Robyn.
My head is too big for my body to be so little.
No thanks.

To tell the truth, I'm quite sad that my pants are starting to sag off of me.
Means I'm losing some of my ass...and my big pretty ass thighs.
The things I love.
I like that my pant size is 14/15.
I never want it to be under a size 10. EVER.

& last time my ass was a size 10, I was in 8th grade...
I love my adult body.
People don't know how much fun curves can be.

I'm tired of the slick comments on if you were truly happy with yourself you wouldn't be on a diet.
Smh. Child please, I know that I'm sexy when my clothes are off.
My body is evenly proportioned.
Waist dips in to create that hour glass illusion. Yea, I know I'm bomb.
I spend too much time in the mirror admiring myself.
BUT, why not make it better.
If I can have a big ass, flat stomach, big tits, fit arms....why not have that bomb ass body?

And I hate when people see you losing weight and make a huge deal about it. Telling you how good your going to look when your down to so-and-so's size. Smh, who the fuck said I wanted to be petite? If I lose more than 30 lbs on this diet, I'm quiting. Period.

I'll continue to work on what needs to be toned through exercise, but numbers don't matter to me.
Curves are included in my definition of beauty for myself.
And they forever will be.

At the end of every day I love myself, regardless. Big ass and all.

-Robyn Latice

What gives you the right?!

Yo.

Today I was going to discuss more sappy relationship shit. Today I was going to be all in my feelings and discuss my problems. I didn’t feel like ranting about anything UNTIL I was browsing through blogs and saw just something unacceptable in my opinion. [I don’t remember her blog address but this is in response to her.]
She posted this picture that she found on facebook:


She said that this was one of her facebook friends. She also stated that 'her friends were being nice and could only find her shoes to comment on, not one had the decency to give her criticism'. And since they were holding back the truth she took it upon herself to "be real" by saying "Babe, you're big. Cover up."

............What the fuck? Who says shit like that...who writes shit like that on peoples pictures?! Now the reason this bothers me soo much is just because she said "you’re big". Was that really necessary?--She should have just said cover up...but throwing in that "your big" just makes her inconsiderable. I’m not a small girl so this really gets under my skin. [Read my "Since when does small equal sexy?" post *HERE* to learn more on my weight issue! ] It really pissed me off reading it. I mean who the fuck are you to think you have the authority to say this to this girl? Her point was to discuss why people hold back their true feelings? Why do people hesitate to comment if they disagree? Well...probably so that they won’t come off looking like the inconsiderate asshole. To keep the peace. I'm not a follower of the whole “If you don’t have anything nice to say don't say it at all." phrase. BUT if you gone sit and say some mean ass shit be as nice as possible. And that shit just wasn’t cool. I mean personally if someone left me a comment like that on one of my pictures we would have a HUGE problem. Not for saying that I’m big, but just for being a bitch bold enough to test me on facebook. Now I personally want to know the girls response to “Babe, you're big. Cover up."! I really want to know what she said. I hope she just laughed it off and marked her as childish, because that for damn sure was not a mature way to handle the situation.

People hold back because it’s a sign of maturity. You can’t always spit out what’s going through your mind...sometimes it has to be censored. I’m saying this shit and I’m as bitchy as they come. Censoring what’s in your mind before it comes from your mouth is a sign of maturity. I understand writing about it in your blog and rambling on the subject there but actually having the huge nuts to say that to that girl...Who the fuck are you to go there?! ....My response to the subject was:

"Hmm, I was definitely with you on previous post I've read. But this one. No ma'am. Everyone isn’t going to be a stick figure. Weight is a touchy subject for women and that comment alone was insensitive and could have definitely destroyed her. Ouch. She could stand to wear a higher waist skirt, but saying she’s big and cover up? Come on now, that’s just crazy. AND she isn’t even that big, just has excess stomach. If she is confident enough to wear it, I say she flaunt it, without having people tear her down about it. That’s just like someone telling a thin girl she needs ass to wear short shorts...or bigger breast to wear certain tops. They already know there flaws, if they are comfortable in their skin let them do them!"

Now, I’m not smashing 'Ms Dufa'. I don’t agree with her choice on this blog topic...she could have had better taste in what she said to that girl. The rest of her topics I agree with, and she has a pretty nice site. [BTW I found the address---Visit her*HERE*!] She also made a good point. "When most people want to comment on your post and it’s contrary to your opinion or public opinion, they'll comment as anonymous. Why? Is it the fear that the person will retort or not visit your blog again or that the person's followers will attack you. I just don't get it." --I think it’s just because people don’t want to tear other bloggers down. No sense in destroying them. Now me, ya'll can comment whatever. If you agree, cool. If you don’t, cool. I know people aren’t always going to agree but I look forward to hearing the two different opinions on my topics! I never write anonymous whether I agree or disagree because there is always a nice way to say that you disagree. ALWAYS! Am I the only one that thinks this was out of place? Where is the line between being real and being just plain rude?! Ok, until next time...Toodles.

Since when does small equal sexy?

Yo.

Okay, so my last two topics came from suggestions from others! But today I'd like to write about a topic that personally affects me! Something a little more personal. [I know your thinking what’s more personal than sex...right?] So today the issue is weight!

Ok, so here comes my life story. I grew up a very skinny child. Not that I ever noticed. When I was that young I never paid attention to mirrors, nor when people would call me skinny. I mean at that age all I cared about was trying to dodge being “It". You know, running around trying to make it to base in "Hide and Seek", trying not to ever get frozen in "Freeze Tag". I was just being a child, care-free...problem free! If there weren’t pictures around from my childhood I honestly wouldn’t even know how I looked! Seriously! Anywho the summer before 6th grade comes around. I went from 95lbs to 121lbs...over one summer. I didn’t notice until my family made it clear that I was getting bigger. I mean my eating habits hadn't changed, nor my exercise habits. All my weight had went mainly to my thighs and ass. Not bad. I was now considered "thick". I still didn’t notice, I mean 6th grade was the first time I had ever even tried to care about what I was wearing, how my hair looked...and all that jazz! {BTW my mother was still dressing me and doing my hair EVERY morning for school then...}Of course I didn’t stop growing in 6th grade. By the end of 8th grade I was 157lbs[size 11 jeans, 32B]. By this time my mother was having a fit...seriously! I saw the weight in my thighs...my chest and stomach were still small...so personally I liked it. But number wise I had passed my mother [who was 129lbs trying to get to 140?]! And no matter how cute my shaped looked it was unacceptable number wise! So at this point she started with the snide comments.

[10th- [size11/34B] Now-[size14-15/38C] :)]

-This photo might actually be from beggining of 11th..Im not sure-

I mean EVERY chance she got she would tell me to push away from the table[ Although I eat less than everyone in my household..]..! And her remarks actually hurt. I mean I wasn’t doing anything different...and I was very active!There was no way she was having a daughter bigger than her. Now at this time a lot of extra things were going on in my life as well. By this time my mother thought I had been having sex [simply based on my weight!], she had accused me of being pregnant in as young as 7th grade! I was devastated of course. Because at that time I definitely wasn’t getting anybody’s dick...nor did I want it. All the names that I was being called in that household by the time I got to tenth grade was RIDICULOUS! I mean I don’t really know of any child that it wouldn’t affect in a negative way. After you’ve been called a hoe, bitch, slut, nasty, fat, trifling, heartless, and told "I hate you" from your mother...what everybody else says or thinks seems not to matter. [My mother now denies calling me any of them of course :/ & I love her the same!] And at THAT time in 10th grade...I was still a virgin...so everything was based on her imagination! By that time she put me  on my first diet. And really it was portion control I suppose...but it just pissed me off and left me hungry. For a minute I tried her diets, thinking maybe if I did get to the size she wanted me at all this bullshit ass name calling would stop. If I did everything to make her happy.....because that’s all I ever wanted, was to see her happy like she was in my childhood! Anywho...longgg story short by senior year I was 187! My mother was freaking out--told me I wasn’t gone be living in her house getting bigger than the house! And I didn’t give a damn! She and my sisters are the only people’s opinions that have ever really mattered to me...and her opinion on my weight was just there to crush my spirits through high school. So I quickly got over it, I’m healthy...and happy and that’s all that really matters. Til this day my mother mentions my weight EVERY time she sees me...but it doesn’t really matter anymore! I mean...I can’t always make her happy, as long as I’m happy with myself..! I don’t know how she became so big on the stick-figure issue. I mean my granny and auntie are about the weight of 2 of me alone...! Well my aunt is like 11/2 of me...but my granny is 2! Maybe she is scared that I'll get that big before I know it. I don’t really know her issue on that.

[My favorite plus-size model that shouldnt even be considered "Plus", Tocarra Jones]

I never personally had a problem with my weight! NEVER! Not even now! & "number wise” I probably should! But I'm very content and confident in every extra pound on my body! My family still makes their remarks. I know I’m not skinny. Never in life would I desire to be! I love my ass, thighs, & tits! Everyone has their problem area...Mine is my stomach! But as long as it isn’t hanging over my pants...it’s not major! The reason this topic bothers me is because I see so many girls whose shapes are wonderful striving to lose weight to fit in with everyone else’s perception of beauty! I mean I know girls personally who have a problem with what I wear...and blah blah blah, simply because I’m "too big" for it. & by whose standards are those? If I want to wear skirts, shorts, short dresses...tight dresses, that is my prerogative! Who’s to tell me I can’t wear it...and look damn good in it?! The sexiest thing to have is confidence...and ANY woman no matter what her size is...if she works her outfits with confidence, I say gone head girl...do you! When I get to a point when I am just unhappy with my appearance maybe I'll work harder to change it...but never will I try to be a stick-figure. I like my curves just fine! If you’re unhappy personally with the way you look, change it! But do it for you, never for anyone else! Maybe my audience can leave me comments telling me why being small in some people’s minds is the definition of sexy...or whatever. And how if you’re big...you must have low self-esteem, or some other nonsense! I mean seriously...where does this stuff come from?! Leave me comments. [They can be anonymous] :)] Oh p.s In my now picture Im 209lbs![See that number sounds soo much bigger than the photo..lol :)]Until next time guys.....
Toodles!