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Friday, March 26

Update: Funeral and My Shawty

Yo.
Okay, so I'll be back to my regular posting now.Thanks for all the comments under my last post. The actual funeral? Complete hell on me. I mean I've only cried at one funeral in my life and even then it was controlable. This time?...Nonstop and they actually had to drag me out of the funeral view...crazy right? I leaned in to kiss him and he was just so....hard and cold. That seriously fucked my mind up. Ughh, anywho no more details of that day. I got reaquainted with that side of my family...oh how I love those fools! Anywho...my life is pretty much at a stand-still right now.

This little purple monkey here is my love, Shawty[He named him that jokingly bc he used to say that word too much]. My ex won him for me at the fair during our relationship. It meant sooo much to me. No one has ever "won" anything for me...so I thought it was really sweet. I had him for a little over a year....then I had to get rid of him.

He meant TOO much to me. Everytime I looked at him that memory would come back...and many others. && that I can not deal with . Stuffed animals never mean much to me..but this one did..and he had to go. What do you do with past loves items that they have given you? Do you throw them away or keep them tucked away out of sight. I have too many other things...odd things to remind me of him. But none with the same effect as Shawty. So to my little Shawty, Im sorry sweetheart but you were a thing of the past..no point in hanging on to you anymore. Toodles.

9 comments:

Secretia said...

I pack them away somewhere because I know one day I will want to relive the memories...

Secretia

JStar said...

I hope that all is well! I must have missed your last post, so I am not sure who's funeral you went to...I hope you are moving on but still holding them close to ur heart...

I havent been able to let go of those items, even if I dont want them back...I still wear a ring my ex gave me, I still have ex's t shirts...Pictures...but I know I need to let go one day, really soon...

BabydollNa said...

i still keep them tucked away .... but recently i got rid of a notebook full of poems my baby's father wrote to me....nice blog

Supastarrr said...

sounds like a LOT of letting go, love. Sorry for the loss && it's always best to let go of the remnants of the old dudes.

Cook.ThePoet. said...

Hahahahaha!! IDK why seeing it in the box like that made me laugh so bad. But yea somethings do need to just be thrown away.

-Cook.ThePoet.

Myne Whitman said...

I'm glad you're feeling better. Have a nice weekend.

pennanddpaperr . said...

yayy you're back!
you have no idea how much i have missed your posts. you have also been in my prayers as well. i dont even know you and im aware of the incredible strength you have not only because you are a African American Woman but because its just the kind of spirit you hold.

ily Miss Robyn Latice ! <3

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Hope you feel the love coming at you from my way, and all your followers here...

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