What gives you the right?!

Yo.

Today I was going to discuss more sappy relationship shit. Today I was going to be all in my feelings and discuss my problems. I didn’t feel like ranting about anything UNTIL I was browsing through blogs and saw just something unacceptable in my opinion. [I don’t remember her blog address but this is in response to her.]
She posted this picture that she found on facebook:


She said that this was one of her facebook friends. She also stated that 'her friends were being nice and could only find her shoes to comment on, not one had the decency to give her criticism'. And since they were holding back the truth she took it upon herself to "be real" by saying "Babe, you're big. Cover up."

............What the fuck? Who says shit like that...who writes shit like that on peoples pictures?! Now the reason this bothers me soo much is just because she said "you’re big". Was that really necessary?--She should have just said cover up...but throwing in that "your big" just makes her inconsiderable. I’m not a small girl so this really gets under my skin. [Read my "Since when does small equal sexy?" post *HERE* to learn more on my weight issue! ] It really pissed me off reading it. I mean who the fuck are you to think you have the authority to say this to this girl? Her point was to discuss why people hold back their true feelings? Why do people hesitate to comment if they disagree? Well...probably so that they won’t come off looking like the inconsiderate asshole. To keep the peace. I'm not a follower of the whole “If you don’t have anything nice to say don't say it at all." phrase. BUT if you gone sit and say some mean ass shit be as nice as possible. And that shit just wasn’t cool. I mean personally if someone left me a comment like that on one of my pictures we would have a HUGE problem. Not for saying that I’m big, but just for being a bitch bold enough to test me on facebook. Now I personally want to know the girls response to “Babe, you're big. Cover up."! I really want to know what she said. I hope she just laughed it off and marked her as childish, because that for damn sure was not a mature way to handle the situation.

People hold back because it’s a sign of maturity. You can’t always spit out what’s going through your mind...sometimes it has to be censored. I’m saying this shit and I’m as bitchy as they come. Censoring what’s in your mind before it comes from your mouth is a sign of maturity. I understand writing about it in your blog and rambling on the subject there but actually having the huge nuts to say that to that girl...Who the fuck are you to go there?! ....My response to the subject was:

"Hmm, I was definitely with you on previous post I've read. But this one. No ma'am. Everyone isn’t going to be a stick figure. Weight is a touchy subject for women and that comment alone was insensitive and could have definitely destroyed her. Ouch. She could stand to wear a higher waist skirt, but saying she’s big and cover up? Come on now, that’s just crazy. AND she isn’t even that big, just has excess stomach. If she is confident enough to wear it, I say she flaunt it, without having people tear her down about it. That’s just like someone telling a thin girl she needs ass to wear short shorts...or bigger breast to wear certain tops. They already know there flaws, if they are comfortable in their skin let them do them!"

Now, I’m not smashing 'Ms Dufa'. I don’t agree with her choice on this blog topic...she could have had better taste in what she said to that girl. The rest of her topics I agree with, and she has a pretty nice site. [BTW I found the address---Visit her*HERE*!] She also made a good point. "When most people want to comment on your post and it’s contrary to your opinion or public opinion, they'll comment as anonymous. Why? Is it the fear that the person will retort or not visit your blog again or that the person's followers will attack you. I just don't get it." --I think it’s just because people don’t want to tear other bloggers down. No sense in destroying them. Now me, ya'll can comment whatever. If you agree, cool. If you don’t, cool. I know people aren’t always going to agree but I look forward to hearing the two different opinions on my topics! I never write anonymous whether I agree or disagree because there is always a nice way to say that you disagree. ALWAYS! Am I the only one that thinks this was out of place? Where is the line between being real and being just plain rude?! Ok, until next time...Toodles.

Yesterday...

Yo.
Welcome to all my lovely new followers. Because I'm not really in the mood to talk shit today, I'll post a poem written by yours truly.!

[..Yesterday..]

"Im done."
...With?
"You."

Simple.
As simple as it gets.
...still my mind rushed to bring meaning to these words.
My heart paused...paused because I knew exactly what it meant.
The simplest way to break up with someone...I knew that it was over.

It feels like yesterday...it's been a year, but still everyday feels like yesterday.
...with everyday being yesterday, have I really moved on?
...
I wake up this morning yearning to talk to you,to tell you how far I've come.
To brag...to prove...
but there is nothing to prove.
I wish I could tell you that I've moved on.
I wish I could tell you that I was happy...as you.

Yeah...Ive grown,
Yeah...I'm more mature,
Yeah...I've done all this great shit mentally because of our outcome
...But emotionally?...Emotionally its still yesterday.
I wish yesterday would stop being today.

Simply put I miss you.
I know that this is best...but still I miss you.
Is this where I'm supposed to be?
...too scared to try again, too scared to love?
am i supposed to resent those who try?
am i supposed to...still love you?

It feels like yesterday...it's been a year, but still everyday feels like yesterday.
...with everyday being yesterday, have I really moved on?
...

Yea, i wrote this after the whole "It's been a year" post. [If you missed it, check it out ---> *HERE*]. Don't worry I'll be back to my shit talkin self soon! Until next time...Toodles!

Niggas pullin' stunts and shit..

Yo.
Whoa. New followers *screams and waves frantically in my ghetto-est voice* "HEY Y'ALL!"! Lol. I’m really happy to have new followers though. It makes me soooo happy.

[--This photo is definetly over used in blogs--]

Anywho just a minute ago I was on facebook and saw this note that some dude wrote. It had me tripping out. I would post it but its hella long. The gist of the note was basically a guy telling other guys to get their shit together because he got caught up today and almost lost the love of his life. In the note he stated that he was in love with his current girlfriend but was still messing with his ex. He said he thought he was trying to be in love with both of them when the reality was he just didn’t know how to tell his ex that he was indeed in love with his new girl. And how today it all fell apart before his eyes, but he finally told the truth to everyone involved. He is still with his current girlfriend and now he and his ex are done, supposedly fareal. [In case she is reading: This is no offense to you at all, just want to discuss the situation and my opinion on it.] Now I know this guy, and the two girls he was talking about in the note. In my opinion him writing the whole note was just a huge attempt to get back on good terms with his current girlfriend. I personally don’t believe that he has changed or that he is really going to be faithful to her. The whole situation was just messy. And who do I blame? Not the ex, not the current...but that dumb ass nigga. Ughhh, he fucked up two girl’s hearts in one day. I mean completely tore them down, and now he says he's learned his lesson in a day. In one day because he ALMOST lost the love of his life. BULLSHIT! Bull fuckin' shit. In my opinion he is a dumbass. Plain and simple. Some girl commented on his note and said "Look at yo ass growing up. Proud of you." which yea, he is seeming to have grown from the situation but I think it’s just a stunt. A stunt that will temporarily work and make his current girl feel like the most special girl in the world. But...like I said I think its bullshit. I think his note was just hella messy. He didn’t have to put the exes name in there...because he led her on for so long. They were on and off for 2 years...I just would have been like "what the fuck" if I were her. When I saw that I was like wtf was this dude thinking. He just messy...and this shit was uncalled for. Anyway that doesn’t have anything to do with me, but I had to write about it. Simply because he said and I quote:

"I Was still talking to [insert ex's name here]...Yall know who she is...she put up with me for 2 years...and I was trying this whole time to love the two....Not because I wanted to love her...because I was too afraid and not man enough to tell my past...I LOVE [insert current girlfriend name here] With all my heart...N this is my closure to all that I have ever hurt or met in my life time..."
[Keep in mind that dude is only 20.]

If I were the ex I would have been too mad, and my reaction would have been on some "thin line between love and hate" type shit. [Yea, Im kind of crazy..so what?!]Smh. Am I the only one that thinks this is some bullshit ass fuckery?! Ughhh, silly niggas!Until next time babes...Toodles!

Trying to get attention my ass....

Yo.
So, I've decided to just start posting my random ass thoughts as well to this blog. Meaning, I’m going to stop trying to be so structured and find things that everyone wants to discuss. Nope. I’m quitting with all of that. Now my blog is all about me! Yeap...

So on facebook my profile photo is of me wearing a cute top and my panties. [See my facebook badge in sidebar]Yeap, my panties. It wasn’t a whole “Oooh let me take a picture in my panties and post it on facebook" type of thing. Nope I took the picture while lounging in my room one day. I looked in the mirror and was having one of them “shit I look good" moments and grabbed my phone and snapped a few pics. I always lounge in my room without pants so at the time it wasn’t a big deal. I liked one of the pics and put it on facebook. Since then I've had all kinds of EXTRA comments, inbox messages, text messages, and even direct face to face comments about my damn picture. And I’m always like dude it aint that serious! Comments in the inbox range from " You’re so beautiful/jazzy/confident/classy?" to “Damn. Sexy as fuck/Let me handle that body/ oooh-wee/ “and all other types of bullshit. IF I know them [meaning if I know who these dudes are outside of facebook] I'll send back "Thank you." expecting it to be the end of the convo. But it rarely ever is. It’s always followed by some lame attempt to get at me. & I’m like on facebook...really? Why?--Anywho, the "in person" comments are always about how naked I am on my picture and how I need to put on clothes or something of the sort. I don’t believe I’m naked. Yes, I have my panties on...but all of my thighs aren’t even showing. It’s just a small portion of leg revealed and its a big fuss over nothing. A lot of people think I do shit like that for attention. Somebody [a female of course] wrote me in my honesty box. First off I’m thinking who the fuck uses Honesty Box anymore...and why the fuck is some random bitch writing me. The message stated "Um, you need to put some clothes on in your profile picture. Stop being so nasty, trying to get attention." <---Wtf? I’m like...hello, who the fucks attention am I trying to get? I don’t want that lame ass attention, and I don’t want strangers lusting over me...I damn for sure don’t do it for the attention. I like the picture; I think its badass...so I made it my profile photo. I don’t mind people commenting saying whatever but when they start to think I’m doing it just because I enjoy getting all the lame excuses for men approaching me...It pushes my buttons. Another reason why I don’t deal with too many females--that's hating to me. If you don’t like the shit remove me from your friend list and have a nice day. Damn, all up on my clit--Can you let go please. Shit. Can’t be doing shit for myself these days. Ughhh, I’m starting to hate facebook, its sooo lame...and messy, and boring as fuck! I think I might remove myself then people won’t have to think I’m doing shit on there for attention. Anywho just me venting again..! Until something else pisses me off....Toodles!

Ghetto Poem--wtf is malt likka & bar ba q? -lol

Yo.
Hello everyone. This is just another random post, nothing to discuss in general. I was reading someones blog and had to post this....! It is the ghetto-est poem I've ever read. I'm all for recieving poetry from guys but this? This...Im pretty sure I could do without. Hella funny though. Enjoy! :)

Ghetto Poem:

Gurl I love you, straight up fa sho

Or I wouldna told them ova girls not to call me no mo
I knewed it was true, da first day I seent you
Why you thank I do, the thangs I do?

Rememba ha I usta wine and dine you,
Schlits Malt Likka and Bar Ba Q?
I gave you a bubble baff and fed you grapes
cuz dey was on sale that week a dolla ninety eight.

Romantic evenins afta dark
Skreet light walks around da park
Like the very first time you had came ova my house.

And you got all skerd cuz that roach was on yo timbs
I was right there wit a can o' spray
to be yo super man and save da day.

I ain't even pay my light bill,
so I can take you to da club...
Don't knock ova dos candles and burn up my rug!
And dat night we made luv for a long little bit of time
I hope you got yours, cuz I shole nuff got mine!
I woke up early and made you breffix in bed
Sep for I ain't have no juice, no grits, and no eggs.
Didn't have no cereal and was fresh outta milk.
so we had some toast and some tato chips.
I use to rub lotion on ya feets and massage ya back
I found you some glue when you lost one of yo tracks.

Now what man you knowed
ever loved you like dis?
Gurl please just take my name
off dat chile support list.


lol, seriously this is soo funny to me. Anywho. Toodles!

A short poem on Love.

Yo.
So my weekend at home was definitely most needed. I got a little of my sanity back...lol! I hope you guys’ weekend was wonderful as well. Tonight my post will be pretty short. Just a few feelings on "Love".... Enjoy!

Love.
I am infatuated by love; in lust with the beauty of love.
I am Love's groupie.
I've been chasing. But every time I catch it...it just struggles free.
I yearn for the feelings, for the completion it brings.
I admire love.
It escapes; I have to find it again. I have to have it.
When it's in my presence, I freeze up. I go wild like the groupie I am.
I’m at a loss of words, but I know what I feel.
I know that I feel overtaken. I know that I feel...complete.
Love is the quickest runner I know.
Just when I think I’ve caught it, forever...
It slips away.
Love is the most beautiful pain I’ve felt.
Even when Love hurts me, even when it leaves...
I can't help but to remember.
Remember the good times me and love have shared.
All the smiles and knowledge love has brought me.
Call it an obsession if you will.
I am infatuated by love. In lust with the beauty of love.
I am Love's groupie.

Why do I find so much beauty in love…even after I feel I’ve lost mine? Anywho... until next time Toodles!