Dear Mother:

Yo.
We interrupt your normal program to bring you:
So I've been going through a few things...and my mother has been helping me cope. If you know me and my mothers past relationship it would be a shock. Our relationship only got better when i went away to college. Even then it was good every once and a while. Well today I woke up to a text message from her :

[Good morning baby. I know you’re having a hard time 2. I’m here 4 u. We will get thru this. Hope you have a better day. I love you. From now on I will be uplifting and more understanding. I get so raveled up in my own problems that I act like yall don’t have problems, worries, or pain and I’m SO SORRY FOR THAT! From this day forward I am going to be more understanding of yall concerns. I can’t take back the years I lacked but you make sure it doesn’t happen again. I promise. I love you more than words can say. We will get through this, just don’t worry yourself.]

--------mind you we have never been the family to speak openely on mushy gushy feelings. No hugging, no kissing, we dont even say i love you regularly...because we know its there and doesnt need to be said.
She really has made my day! So to her....

Dear Mother:

Let me start by saying...I LOVE YOU! I know we have had our down times. Times when you’re yelling feels like its suffocating me. Times when you didn’t want me near you. Times…times when things were just horrible. But know that through every and anything I love you more than I could ever show.I depend so much on you some might think it’s ridiculous. You’ve spoiled me to be this way and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Even when you disapprove of everything I do, I love you. If anything ever happened to you I don’t know where I’d be. I don’t know if I could stay here...on this earth. Now I am going through what seems like the hardest time of my life so far and you are right here by my side...as you always are when things outside of our relationship get tough. You are the only person keeping me sane right now and if you only knew how much that truly meant to me. When I can’t see the sun shining you grab my hand and lead me there. You have been understanding through this whole process and please continue to bear with me. I could never ask nor need a better mother than you. Granted we have our issues; we might not agree 98% of the time…but we cannot be perfect. Thanks for every sacrifice you have ever made for me. It took a little maturing to see how much you’ve worked for me and my sisters. Being a single mother is never easy...and believe I appreciate it. You are my hero; my idol. I want to be able to provide and do for my child when that day comes as you have always done for me and my sisters. You would give your last for me and know that I would do the same. I am and will always be available for you whenever you need me. KNOW that! I love you!

With sooo much love,

Robyn

Ok...now back to your normal scheduled program! Toodles! :)

More Awards :)!

Hello YO!

I'm pretty much caught up on everyones blogs now. Some of you really do make my days better. Others force me to think about shit that i dont necessarily want to think about..but need to. While catching up I realized I dont even care for some of the blogs i follow anymore...so i need to get on to removing them ASAP. Somethings i just cant relate to..nor do I want to. Anywho because I said I'd do this award post..here goes[I'm going to shortcut rules: Yall know the deal]!

During my catching up I've collected 5 awards! *Gasp*! :o!

I feel so loved! Ok...I received the Happy Blog award 4 times. From Keenya over at Golden Mind, *Cook over at Musik & Soul *,Mz.AuNatural-Beauty over at Truth on the Rocks, and Von digne over at My Mind State! I love all of their blogs. Hilarious,talented bloggers...they wont dissapoint. Gone Head over and check them out! NOW! :)Anywho, 4 times Meaning that I would have to do the rules for this x's 4...40 things that make me happy and 40 bloggers who brighten my day. Smh...bullshit, yall know i hardly follow the original rules. I'll do 20 facts & 20 bloggers. Yeap..sounds fair to me!

Shit that makes me all giggly inside:

•  Family...[well some of them, the rest? smh..]
• Friends...[sometimes those tricks can be a bit much though...but I love them all the same]
• Writting...[gotta get my feelings out somehow..right?]
• Art...[lovvvve painting]
• Sex...[def has to be at the top of the list somewhere.]
• Porn...[what? wasnt expecting that? I watch tht shit like TV! It soothes me!]
• My fingers...[think about the two above...self-explanatory]
• Shopping...[although I havent shopped for myself in months..aghh Im so deprived]
• Poetry...[love seeing people perform spoken word...!]
• Pretty Woman, Nip/Tuck, Bad Girls Club, Set it Off..and all of my other fav shows & movies.
• Taking pics of myself...[clearly...]
• Dudes catching the hint to fuck off...[Seriously!]
• Blogging...[love yalls blogs! :)]
• Music...[usually all my oldies! ]
• Love...[pretty much obsessed/infatuated with the whole concept of it]
• Sucess...[achieving goals I've set for myself]
• Strippers...[as of yesterday...Mmmm yall that man def gave me new ideas! ;)]
• Other happy truly happy people...[a real smile realy can make me feel better]
• Intellectuals...[People that just dont have simple ass conversations]
• .......um, Me?[I ran out of shit!]

ok..Im being lazy on my editing too....smh!
20 Bloggers Who make me happy reading their shit:

• Keenya,Von Digne, Cook, and Mz.AuNatural [links above]
• Supastarrr over at Supastarr,the co-ed
• Gwen over at Permanent Issues
• Leiominala over at Leiomi Nala's Corner
• Kraziibipolarchic
• Reese over at Sweet Sanity&Sarcasm
• Vincia over at Mocha.Sister
• Khaki over at Not All Baltimore Girls Are Stupid
• You know you dead azz wrong
• Jennifer over at Inside JStar's Head
• Shay over at .iDream.
• Sinfullyo
• Nightfall914 over at Blu Flame Blvd. 
• Ro over at Love,Faith and Hope
• Bubbles over at irant.idance.iwrite
• Val over at Planet Pro-tron
• Secretia over at Secret Story Time

 In no way is this in order! [Not that most of the blogs that i follow dont make me happy..Im just lazy and refuse to go through ALL of them!]Anywho...the next award was given to me by Vincia over at Mocha.Sister. Wonderful blog... gone head and go check her out if you havent already.

 I only have to tell awards I love under this...and really the blogs I LOVE on an EVERY post basis are listed in those above. Figure it out...and since I wont point them all out...those listed above also get this one![Yeap..Im just being lazy...who cares? :)]

Oh...and guess what else? Yall dont have to follow those icky rules. Nope..just accept it and be happy...I mean unless you really would like to do all of that...then be my guest. Anywho I really appreciate all of my faithful followers and stalkers! It feels wonderful to be appreciated.! [Get so much pussy I can probably guess yo panty size??lol..remix on Vincia's page..hilarious line. i know someone who can do that :)!] Ok...Toodles for now!

Who Dat say they gone beat them Saints...Well I'm sure my boys said it...BITCHES! :x

Yo.
Shit you already know why I'm here. You do know...right?! Who dat say they gone beat them Saints? Well MY motherfuckin' COWBOYS! Yea bitches! Oooooooh-Weeeeee! I admit I had my doubts but...they came through! Aghhhhhh, I love my BOYS!

Dear Boys:
Sorry for doubting you all. No doubt yall are the shit. That is all!
- Robyn

Now, I'm about to party my ass off. Yes I'm in a good ass mood! GOOO COWBOYS! Hell yea! Saints I like yall but I LOVE my boys! Ok, Toodles!

TMi?...Naw, It's just an award! :x

Yo.!
So.....I have ANOTHER award! Yes! Ya'll know how lazy I am and how I HATE following rules...BUT, I'm gone gone head and do this one right! Ok, SO I was  given the award by two different bloggers. First given by the amazing Ms. Cook[.The Poet] over at Musik&Soul! Definitely love reading her post. Most of her poems hit home [& they are damn good poems!]--and her opinion on other things..is always a nice read! Secondly, Ms. Reese over at Sweet Insanity and Sarcasm! Always a pleasure to read [she told me I had to follow the rules..blah! lol]! Her take on things are quite interesting AND her tidbits of her life events..funny and enlightning to read.! Thank you ladies sooo much! If you arent already familiar with these two ladies run on over there[or click on over there..whatever]..and do that NOW!...Ok on to the Rules..blah! :)

TMI BLOG AWARD RULES:

*post the award on your blog
*list 8 things a voyeur / peeping tom could potentially catch you doing if they were watching you
*award up to 8 bloggers who match the criteria of this award
*make sure they know you enjoy peeping through their windows

8 Things a Voyeur/Peeping Tom could catch me doing--
.1 Singing my heart out to whatever slow song that pops up on my playlist! [Can't sing worth shit!]
.2 Shaking my ass around the room in very little OR nothing...love dancing although i never do it when im out unless im buzzed. Smh!
.3 Snapping photos of myself...I love taking pictures..and I love me..so why not?
.4 Painting...it really relaxes me![Love arts of all kinds!]
.5 On my laptop...Youtube, Twitter, Blogger, or Googling some strange question.
.6 Writting...have to keep my thoughts in order! And reading, LOVE reading!
.7 Watching some amazing pornstar do incredible tricks...hey just being real!
.8 [Probably the craziest one:] Umm, well...because i dont REALLY open up to anyone I talk quite often when I'm alone. Out loud. AND...I actually have a person from my past that I go to with all my problems and talk to them as if they are really there. My mind adds there response automatically[even their laugh]...crazy as shit right?...lol..Well I dont really care that you think I'm crazy...everyone has odd quirks to them. [Thats definitely only one of many!]

So...8 people fit for the award..what does that mean? Does it mean that I feel like they give me TMi in a good way?..or the ones I like to "peep" on the most?...Hmmm, since this is a TMi award. I'm going to pick 8 bloggers who could probably get me moist on their writting skills alone. [I mean that is the straightest way possible..lol :)!]

And the award goes to...
--Mae, Wifepoo, & A la belle etoille over at Chocolate For Aphrodite
--She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
--Jennifer Wilmer over Inside JStar's Head
--Val over at Planet Pro-tron
--Mo over at Truthfully Mo
--Rippa over at The Intersection of Madness and Reality
--Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
--Fabulo-la over at Me. And then some

Most of these being mostly poetry blogs! :) I LOVE poetry..pretty much obsessed with it and anyone who can write into my heart [or my panties ;)] I appreciate reading! & of course I'm giving it back to Cook and Reese! :)! See how I followed the rules to the tee?...Ya'll dont have to do that...AT ALL! lol, be lazy like me and just enjoy babes! Welcome new followers! :) ! Hope your learning things about me...I'm really not as weird as I sound...[I'm in denial] :)! Hmmm...had some things to discuss, but I'm too tired to try to type another post tonight. I'll do it in the morning...well whenever I decide to roll out of my bed tomorrow! Goodnight!

Sick of Award post?...Sorry I cant help it :)!

Yo.
So....I received another award! :) Yahh! This lovely award was given to me by the wonderful Keenya over at Golden Mind! She is HILARIOUS! Seriously. She doesnt blog as much as I would like to read...but I do love her writtings when she posts! :) If you havent checked her out...Gone head and do that NOW! & Follow her on twitter...good entertainment.. :)! Anywho, I'm lazy and hate following rules! But, This time I'll try to switch it up...give it to some new bloggers or ones I find just off the wall different! :) So babies dont feel offended if I dont award you.Ok, I'm timing myself to see how long  I take to do this post. Following the rules..which include awarding 7 people with the award...and telling 7 facts about me! :) Ok, so here goes.
7 Random Facts about me:

•  I recently realized I'm a tad bit stuck up. I know I shouldnt look at people and think they are beneath me...but I do sometimes. So sue me?..I'm workin' on it! Promise!
• I love feeling useful. Like helping people out with things...I makes me feel so good.
• I'm REALLY mean. And a tad bit psychotic! I got it from my mother...I like to think Im a little less crazy than she is! :)
• This whole not havin' sex thing....pshhh, shit starting to seriously fuck with my mind! Yea, Im pretty sure I will be considered an "addict" in the future. Pretty damn sure! :)
• I'm frustrated with this whole going natural thing already. My edges get ridiculous. But I have to keep tellin myself that I can do this! [Tips & stuff would be greatlt accepted! :)]
• I always think Im better when Im not in a relationship..but I'm pretty sure its when I'm  in one. But being single has really helped me evaluate and better myself! :)!
• Black is my favorite color! Purple is my secondary!

Re-reading the rules from her page..I totally did that wrong. Was supposed to tell 7 things I love...well that took 12 minutes...so oh well! lol, Random facts are better! :)

Ok...and finally the award goes to :
Moe over at You know you dead azz wrong
With love___starz over at with love,starz
Chanel over at The Rainbow Room
Simone and Cynthia over at The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly
Enigma Jones over at Life and Times of a Trifling Chick
Jennifer Wilmer over at Inside JStar's Head
Leila over at Black Girl With Long Hair

It's soo many other Kreative blogs but it took me 1hour and 30 minutes to do this whole post. Smh, then it actually disappered..I was efinetly about to flip the hell out! lol..anywho Enjoy. You dont have to follow the rules or none of that nonsense! Thanks for following me everyone! :)  Until next time...Toodles! :)

Another Award? ...They really love me :)!

Yo.
Hello lovlies! :)So...as you can see I got another award! About a week ago..I'm late, so sue me?lol! Anywho..I was awarded this award by two lovely bloggers. The first was the wonderful Supastarrr over at Supastarrr, the co-ed! She is definitely one of my favorite bloggers! I loveeee her blog! :) It is hilarious and its always wonderful to see her point of view. The other was a recent discovery. The lovely Ms. Leiominala over at Leiomi Nala's Corner! [How do you prononce your name ma'am?]! I love her blog as well. On it she shares a lot of random tidbits. Some cute,funny, and just entertaining things! So if you havent checked these two lovely's out...Do so NOW! :)

And the award goes to....................*DRUMROLL*
Neesh B. Fly over at The Real Dish
Sylvia over at Photography by Me
Khaki over at Not All Baltimore Chicks are Stupid [My cousin was outraged I gave this award..based on your Nikki Minaj post..lol He is a die hard fan. Yes, HE! :)]
Ro over at Love, Faith and Hope
Juicy Carter over at Juicy Carter
Keenya over at Golden Mind
E Dot Dizzy over at E Dot Dizzy
Lalaliybean over at DESSERT or disaster
She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
Cook The Poet over at Musik&Soul
Secretia over at Secret Story Time
her. over at A swirl of My World
Darling Nikky& Kia Poison over at Tasteless Diamonds

AND of coarse back to Supastarr and Leiomi Nala!
There are rules to this award and I honestly hate following the rules. It takes forever. This post took me about 2 hour to complete..maybe Im slighly off?lol..who knows...anywho ya'll dont have to follow the rules. Just enjoy! :)
Thanks to all my wonderful followers. Thanks for taking the time out to read my thoughts..I really do love and appreciate you all! :) ok..Toodles!

I'm a star in my mind....lol, Another award...{ :) }!

Yo.

Guess what?....Yeap by the title you can see I got another award. I got the " I love your blog award". Isn't this so sweet? Yes, My second blog award! I'm sooo happy! :) This blog award was given to me by Neesha B. Fly over at *The Real Dish*! [<----ViSiT HER]! Her blog is a mixture of celebrity news,gossip, current events, music, fashion, arts...all with the twist of her opinion. Very interesting..not so typical like a lot of Celebrity Blogs! I love hers! Anywho Im rambling, go check her out...NOW!
Toodles!

*Gasp*....I feel like a star: And the Award goes to...

Yo.
*screaming excitedly*: LOVELY'S I GOT AN AWARD.! Yes, little ole me got an award. I'm so happy about this. My first blog award was given to me earlier today by SYLVIA over at * Photography by Me * . She's so sweet. I like that she has so much variety in her posts, so you never get bored visiting.! Her blog is very entertaining and she takes some pretty badass pictures. If you havent checked her out...Do so NOW! :)

I'm not required to do anything but accept the award really, but I do want to give it to those other bloggers who have shown me support! [Sidenote: Could I give someone who rewards me the same award back?..What about if they created the award?..If so, I'd like to give it back to Sylvia! :)]

[Isn't this the cutest award ever?]

Those who have shown me constant support and deserve the award:

• xxxx over at *Golden Mind* 
• her. over at *A Swirl of My World*
• Supastarr over at *Supastarrr, the,co-ed*
• Secretia over at *SecretStory Time*
• A.R. over at *fuck the rest*
• Ro over at *Ro is getting fit*

**  I would also give it to Reem and Meech becaue they follow my blog and comment when needed since the beginning..but those whores dont have blogs! Booo...but I appreciate yall too :)
Ughhh, I feel like I missing someone. If I missed you and youve constantly shown me love...I'm sorry! Truly! I know how some of yall dont like making post dedicated to awards and you dont have to if you dont want to, Anywho..enjoy guys! I really appreciate you all! Ok, Toodles! :)