Blogger Quote of the Week : Keenya

Yo.

"When our guys act up and we still choose to deal with them, have sex with them, cater to them, and allow them access to our heart, we aren't sending the message that we love them and down for whatever... we are sending a message that we stand for nothing and will allow anything..."--Keenya [Her Blog]

If you haven't already stopped by go ahead slide on over there now! Toodles!!

Phone Sex :X..blah!

Yo.
So a fellow blogger,Khaki, is having a "30 Day Quest to Phone Sex" over on her blog--> [*Not All Baltimore Chicks are Stupid*]. She's attempting to perfect her lack of skills at phone sex. Swear it is hella entertaining...and if you haven’t checked her blog out...What the hell are you waiting for?

Anywho her post got me thinking on the whole phone sex thing...and how much I totally despise it! The purpose of phone sex is an alternative form of pleasure when you’re not really in that person’s presence. But for me...that shit does nothing but leave me irritated as hell. I used to participate just for the satisfaction of the guy...It used to be interesting to hear their reactions...and the shit they say to continue my "fantasy" I’m describing at the moment. I assume they all just love hearing the nasty fantasy filled words escaping my mouth. They enjoy the fake moaning, the thought that I’m actually masturbating while on the phone...I always wondered were the guys on the other side really jacking off to the sound of my voice. Well my slightly altered voice. *Softened voice, light moans building to loud moans...as if dick were really being delivered to me.*Or were they acting like me? Either way...they enjoyed it, and I'd like to think I was damn good at it. My moans alone would leave me in a state ready to...*clears throat*, ... I mean I have a way with my words that could make any freak horny....

*excerpt from the OTHER blog:*
Hello, My name is [insert alter ego name here], Ms.Extacee if you nasty. Would you like a quickie? --Excuse me, I meant would you like to fuck me senseless?...Ready?.....

Go.
[Insert the nasty beggining that I think is too raunchy for this blog]....
Let me put my pretty pussy on your face. Mmmm, yes that's right daddy [mami] , lick it like you own it. Stick that tongue in deep, flick it rapidly over my clit...and don’t forget to slightly nibble. Yes, I love that shit. Show me that you have the skills I yearn for. Make sure you grip my ass, roughly...Please. Oooooh, dig your nails into my ass....[continued with the extra raunchyness.]

& those are the cleanest line I could find on that post. Point proven?...Anywho,Back to the point!
I enjoyed phone sex the firsttime i tried it. It was a bit awkward but I wasnt the one doing all the talking, he basically just wanted to hear me moan. Interesting..but then it just got really boring for me. The constant request to have phone sex...the constant irritation I am left with & the pleasure I am left without. Why participate in something that makes me crave dick even more...just to hear the sound of someone’s voice while you’re supposedly pleasing yourself? And some have talked up some extra nasty shit [Yes, I love nasty!]...leaving me moist and ready to walk to get the dick.

I no longer participate in phone sex...If the only thing I get from it is left in an even worse horny position than I started...I just see no point. You want an alternative? How about I send a few pics...or a video? But as far as that phone sex thing, I retired a while ago...so sorry bruh, call a hotline or some other shit. What are your thoughts on phone sex? To participate or not to participate?...Ok, Toodles!

[-Surprise-]: Welcome, Formspring, Blogger Quote..and all that jazz

Yo.

Yes, there are limits too the questions I will actually "answer" in formspring. I will always "respond" but I will not necessarily answer the question at hand. EVERYthing doesnt need to be discussed over the internet! Ok? Especially not on my personal blog.

For those who don't follow me on twitter I recently had a mini confessional tweet session. & during the tweet session i admitted having a sex blog. A sex blog that I shut down yesterday. Some of my followers from there have decided to click the link I left there and follow me here...[*whispers: Hello playmates*]. I had 4 blogs to keep every aspect of my life seperate. One is a diary..only I can access. One is a confessional blog..and the other beside this one was the sex blog.I started it to discuss all things sexual without judgement from those who read my blog from my hometown. Without everyone knowing my business...to that extent. But since I'm "celibate" I decided to let that one go. It was fun while it lasted.

I started that blog after this one, only had 28 post on that blog, and got up to 307 followers. The anonymous twitter account I had to link up with the sex blog got up to 904 followers in the short time I had it. Crazy right? Sex sells. Sells people to quickly push the follow button. Intrest people more than everyday life and life situations. I felt that blog was too easy. Too easy for people to be interested. Too easy...for people to really care about the substance in my writting...therefore I lost interest.The followers of this blog follow because they want to read what I have to say on a daily..without it being "raunchy", they have a sincere interest in my words. & i love you all for that. I will occasionally mix the two blogs..but to the "playmates", this blog will never be that blog...EVER!

I'm going to start doing a " Blogger Quote of the Week" type thing. When I read other blogs some words just really stand out to me..and lately its been two bloggers...one of which I recently discovered! :) Anywho..I'm going to collect a few quotes throughout every week from different blogs..and feature just that quote on my blog! :) For starters:

"To the emerald eyes of a mystery, when will you tell me what you want from me? if we played Scrabble would you at least spell it out for me?"--- Gwen [*Her Blog*] Check her out.

I love ALL of my followers. Thanks for even taking the time to look at the contents of my blog!... Toodles!

ONE WORD...Tag!

Yo!
SO I was tagged by the lovely penandpaper [Gwen] over at Permanent Issues ![Her blog is the bomb.com<---lol. Check her out!]

Here goes....

Hair -Transistioning...1/2 Natural 1/2 Permed...Terrible to deal with.

Your Mother- Protector, Provider, Comforter...My everything.
Your Father- Gone physically...but finally here w/ me everyday! :)
Fav Food- BREAD [Type:]Chinese....Yummy! I could eat it everyday!
Dream last night -Talking to daddy about my life...that he missed.
Fav drink- Coke...but I mostly drink water.
What room are you in - Bedroom?
Hobby - Writting! Reading! Blogging...& Painting! :)
Fear - I always say Rejection but I couldnt imagine losing my mom & sisters. i wouldnt be able to cope!
Where were you last night - Bed, confused as hell trying to figure out HTML!
Something that you aren't - Fake. Simple-minded.
Muffins - Chocolate Chip!
Wish list item - *Every woman too truly know her worth*
Where you grow up - Greatgranny's house on Rock street...Had our own home but was hardly there.
What you are wearing - Blue sweats, Red work shirt from when I used to wrk at Target.
Your Pet -We got rid of them all. All 3 dogs..and my Turtle, Thomas Anthony Alexander! I miss Him:(
Friends - Um, I'm sure Ive answered this somewhere on my blog.
Something your not wearing - Socks...I never wear them.
Fav Store - Walmart for everything. Forever 21 for Clothes.
Fav Color - BLACK! :)
Last time you laughed -A few minutes ago..watching Living Single! " In a 90's kind of world, Im glad I got my girls."
Your Best Friend[s] - Karimah Marie & Ally Maree! :)
Best Place you go over and over - My dreams...escape from reality.
Person who email you regularly -Blogger..tracking all my post comments.
Fav place to eat - Cheesecake Factory when im out of town! WANT one in LR!

& Im supposed to tag people...But um, I'm too lazy to put the links and stuff up! So...if you'd like to do it..Go for it! :) Toodles!

More Awards :)!

Hello YO!

I'm pretty much caught up on everyones blogs now. Some of you really do make my days better. Others force me to think about shit that i dont necessarily want to think about..but need to. While catching up I realized I dont even care for some of the blogs i follow anymore...so i need to get on to removing them ASAP. Somethings i just cant relate to..nor do I want to. Anywho because I said I'd do this award post..here goes[I'm going to shortcut rules: Yall know the deal]!

During my catching up I've collected 5 awards! *Gasp*! :o!

I feel so loved! Ok...I received the Happy Blog award 4 times. From Keenya over at Golden Mind, *Cook over at Musik & Soul *,Mz.AuNatural-Beauty over at Truth on the Rocks, and Von digne over at My Mind State! I love all of their blogs. Hilarious,talented bloggers...they wont dissapoint. Gone Head over and check them out! NOW! :)Anywho, 4 times Meaning that I would have to do the rules for this x's 4...40 things that make me happy and 40 bloggers who brighten my day. Smh...bullshit, yall know i hardly follow the original rules. I'll do 20 facts & 20 bloggers. Yeap..sounds fair to me!

Shit that makes me all giggly inside:

•  Family...[well some of them, the rest? smh..]
• Friends...[sometimes those tricks can be a bit much though...but I love them all the same]
• Writting...[gotta get my feelings out somehow..right?]
• Art...[lovvvve painting]
• Sex...[def has to be at the top of the list somewhere.]
• Porn...[what? wasnt expecting that? I watch tht shit like TV! It soothes me!]
• My fingers...[think about the two above...self-explanatory]
• Shopping...[although I havent shopped for myself in months..aghh Im so deprived]
• Poetry...[love seeing people perform spoken word...!]
• Pretty Woman, Nip/Tuck, Bad Girls Club, Set it Off..and all of my other fav shows & movies.
• Taking pics of myself...[clearly...]
• Dudes catching the hint to fuck off...[Seriously!]
• Blogging...[love yalls blogs! :)]
• Music...[usually all my oldies! ]
• Love...[pretty much obsessed/infatuated with the whole concept of it]
• Sucess...[achieving goals I've set for myself]
• Strippers...[as of yesterday...Mmmm yall that man def gave me new ideas! ;)]
• Other happy truly happy people...[a real smile realy can make me feel better]
• Intellectuals...[People that just dont have simple ass conversations]
• .......um, Me?[I ran out of shit!]

ok..Im being lazy on my editing too....smh!
20 Bloggers Who make me happy reading their shit:

• Keenya,Von Digne, Cook, and Mz.AuNatural [links above]
• Supastarrr over at Supastarr,the co-ed
• Gwen over at Permanent Issues
• Leiominala over at Leiomi Nala's Corner
• Kraziibipolarchic
• Reese over at Sweet Sanity&Sarcasm
• Vincia over at Mocha.Sister
• Khaki over at Not All Baltimore Girls Are Stupid
• You know you dead azz wrong
• Jennifer over at Inside JStar's Head
• Shay over at .iDream.
• Sinfullyo
• Nightfall914 over at Blu Flame Blvd. 
• Ro over at Love,Faith and Hope
• Bubbles over at irant.idance.iwrite
• Val over at Planet Pro-tron
• Secretia over at Secret Story Time

 In no way is this in order! [Not that most of the blogs that i follow dont make me happy..Im just lazy and refuse to go through ALL of them!]Anywho...the next award was given to me by Vincia over at Mocha.Sister. Wonderful blog... gone head and go check her out if you havent already.

 I only have to tell awards I love under this...and really the blogs I LOVE on an EVERY post basis are listed in those above. Figure it out...and since I wont point them all out...those listed above also get this one![Yeap..Im just being lazy...who cares? :)]

Oh...and guess what else? Yall dont have to follow those icky rules. Nope..just accept it and be happy...I mean unless you really would like to do all of that...then be my guest. Anywho I really appreciate all of my faithful followers and stalkers! It feels wonderful to be appreciated.! [Get so much pussy I can probably guess yo panty size??lol..remix on Vincia's page..hilarious line. i know someone who can do that :)!] Ok...Toodles for now!

Letter to My Ex, Next..and all that good shit in between!

Yo.
 I swear today just couldnt be any worse. Ughh, feels like everything is crashing around me. I dont really want to discuss my day in detail right now...maybe when i get some strength to deal with it all..I will! But today..today I'm just going to borrow another bloggers idea. I saw it on i am the unpretentious narcissist who got the idea from Truth on the Rocks ! Both of whom are lovely bloggers..gone head and check them out! Anywho...on to my letter! [Sorry for the length!]

Dear [Nigga that was just hittin' it i.e Fuckbuddy]:

You know I dont take yo ass serious right? I mean to tell you the truth I never really did. I'd appreciate it if you stop trying to contact me everytime you think we in the same area...textin/callin/facebooking me about " when we gone kick it?". Then why you got to use dumb downed phrases like that? i mean you want pussy..might as well say "when we gone get together and fuck again?"...I mean cause thats all that it translates to in my mind anyway. And why once I tell you all i want is to be fuck buddies..nothing more, your brain tells you to try to make me your girl? Just because we've had a few pillow talks when yo ass wouldnt go home does not mean that I like yo ass...and damn for sure not love. Remember baby..we just fuckin'. Keep yo feelings to yoself and just share the dick please. The only feelings you need to be concerned with of mine are the ones goin on in my pussy..ok? Thanks for understanding!
 P.S- Lose my number...I stopped fuckin with you for a reason.

Dear [Dude i thought I was in love with, dudes I was in love with, and the ones I liked enough to take the " Im yo girl" title i.e EXes]:

Hmmm. Let me start by saying that all of you werent bad. I mean all of you are actually pretty decent dudes. besides the fact that ya'll all triflin. But moral wise and shit yall got some good heads on your shoulders. For the ones that I left....more than likely you deserved it. More than likely i was bored with you..and I warned you from jump..I tend to get bored easily. To the ones that i used....um sorry? I mean if you give me full control what you think ima walk on by? Hell naw..Ima take that shit and run with it. I hate men who let you run over them...anytime my EVERY opinion becomes your opinion too..we have a problem. To the ones that left me....smh. I wanna say fuck yall. But really yall the only ones I gave a damn about. The only ones I cared about leaving...well except for one. And to that one..nigga I know you thought I was devastated..and yea I was. but it wasnt cause you left, it was cause I didnt get to break up with you first..now that shit did something to my ego. Letting a nigga like you break up with me?..smh! Fuck you! To the ones i loved....I still have love for you..might not be IN love, but I def love yall asses.We all had good times...I hope yall suceed  and all that good shit.Talk to ya whenever.
P.S- Ya'll can lose my number too. Dont contact me trying to fuck with my head..and damn for sure dont contact me trying to get ANOTHER chance, telling me how much I'm missed..comparing me to yo bitches after me..." You must regret the day that you left me", well duh I know that I'm better!Yo fault.!...ugh, nigga dismissed!

Dear [What the fuck...is that dude hiding in the bush? i.e STALKERS]:

I know you reading this shit, I know you excited you got a lil air time huh? You think I dont know that you check my twitter,facebook,blog, and any and every other social network you can find me on? I mean dude..hw the fuck you know I had a skype..or a formspring before I even publicized it? Crazy ass dudes. And this aint only to the exes,crazy niggas I wont give the time of day, ex fuckbuds, or just them random ass creepy dudes. Nope, its to the bitches too. I know yall watching...trying to find another reason to have my name all in you mouth. [" My names in yo mouth so it must be delicious"]..Yea I know it makes yo life to talk shit about me...but bitch you aint got stalk me on the low.Reading my shit..reading extra hard in betweeen the lines. Ughh, yall make me sick. Swear you dont like me but you keep up with my shit more than I do?Oh and um..just wait til I get my hands on a tazzer. Swear you gone wish you got my permission to just pop up off fuckin guard and shit...We clear?

Dear [.....Future?]:

Do me a favor and just dont be like the idiots,assholes,triflin niggas above. Show me that it is possible to find someone good for me..and good to me. Dont play games with my heart and try to destroy me. Respect me, be willing to be there with me. Be willing to stand in front of me [protect me]...show me that you are different...and I will give you the same. I havent been perfect, and I cant promise that I ever will be. But I will do [not try] my best...if your willing to do the same.Just be different. A different breed of man than Im used to dealing with. Show me that good and man can go in the same sentence with out be the biggest fuckin oxymoron in the world. Be on the same level in life I am...or higher.  Be able to stimulate my mind, my body, my soul....be like a fairytale;to good to be true! Can you do all of that..or am I asking too much?!

[Yea, i suggest all of you do one. Even if its just for your eyes. Makes you feel good to get it out! :) Oh..I am on formspring now, gone head and ask me anything in that lil box on my sidebar. I'll answer everything! :) And I'm on skype..guess I should put that on the sidebar as well. I'm on the T's now. The Dish on Kamik to be exact...! :) Almost fully caught up...Ok, Toodles!]

Sex Game Proper ;)

Yo.
Okay...I started catching back up today..swear its been longer than 7 hours. But hey now I'm to the L's! I'm stopping right before Lovers and Friends: Me, My pad, and Pen. I was so tempted to skip some. I got through some of my favs today..and cant wait to get to the others....No names will be dropped! :)! Oh and I'm collecting awards on the way..but Im going to accept them all in one big post. So far its 3! :)

Anywho..It's like 2 in the morning and my mind is totally in the gutter. SO I'm going to do a Do's and Dont's to sex [for my personal preferences.]..Got the idea from Keenya! [Check her out!]

Hell Yea's

• Biting [not tht baby nibbling shit either..like vampire bites]
• Long Kisses [ all over]
• Ice,Toppings,Candy, [Candles ;)]
• Choking [pay attention til when I'm about to black out then let go ;)]
• Pull my hair [only if its MY real hair...don't try to yank tracks out!]
• Constant change of position [Be creative]
• Be rough..! [tossing on the bed, pushing on the ground...whatever!]
• Gone head lick the kitty..and be good at it!
• Stare in my eyes
• #1 priority being to make ME cum...ME ME ME!
• Be ready for Round 2!

Hell No's

• Talking [please dont give me a fuckin interview.."Whose is it? How you want it?..etc"]
• Punching
• Slapping...not even light taps
• Nutting on my face
• Eating my ass [biting is acceptable]
• Licking my toes [matter fact dont touch them at all!]
• Being stank [scrub yo nutts!]
• 1-10 minute men. [Unless its specified as a quickie]

Yea..thats all I can think of right now....! Too much info?? Well you did see that lil warning about adult content AND yo ass entered anyway...so suck that shit up! Ok, I need to be sleeping! Seriously! Toodles!

...

Yo.

Okay so i dont know what the hell told me I could get caught up on ALL the blogs I follow in one night. I've been catching up for 5 hours and just made it to the B's. I stopped right before Blu Flame Blvd. 5 hours and not even half way through??? I just realized I follow entirely too many blogs! But I'm addicted to blogging. Smh..I will get to everyone..I promise! So this is going to take wayyy longer than I thought. And since I missed soo much i'm just going in alphabetical order so I'm sure not to miss anyone. I'm soooo tired though. And I'm going to have to continue getting caught up tomorrow..as well as make a few blog changes!
So the question on my mind: What makes a person marriage material?.

I know many people will have many different answers, and I look foward to reading them all. I'll voice my opinion on it a little later. Ok...until tomorrow...TOODLES! :)

TMi?...Naw, It's just an award! :x

Yo.!
So.....I have ANOTHER award! Yes! Ya'll know how lazy I am and how I HATE following rules...BUT, I'm gone gone head and do this one right! Ok, SO I was  given the award by two different bloggers. First given by the amazing Ms. Cook[.The Poet] over at Musik&Soul! Definitely love reading her post. Most of her poems hit home [& they are damn good poems!]--and her opinion on other things..is always a nice read! Secondly, Ms. Reese over at Sweet Insanity and Sarcasm! Always a pleasure to read [she told me I had to follow the rules..blah! lol]! Her take on things are quite interesting AND her tidbits of her life events..funny and enlightning to read.! Thank you ladies sooo much! If you arent already familiar with these two ladies run on over there[or click on over there..whatever]..and do that NOW!...Ok on to the Rules..blah! :)

TMI BLOG AWARD RULES:

*post the award on your blog
*list 8 things a voyeur / peeping tom could potentially catch you doing if they were watching you
*award up to 8 bloggers who match the criteria of this award
*make sure they know you enjoy peeping through their windows

8 Things a Voyeur/Peeping Tom could catch me doing--
.1 Singing my heart out to whatever slow song that pops up on my playlist! [Can't sing worth shit!]
.2 Shaking my ass around the room in very little OR nothing...love dancing although i never do it when im out unless im buzzed. Smh!
.3 Snapping photos of myself...I love taking pictures..and I love me..so why not?
.4 Painting...it really relaxes me![Love arts of all kinds!]
.5 On my laptop...Youtube, Twitter, Blogger, or Googling some strange question.
.6 Writting...have to keep my thoughts in order! And reading, LOVE reading!
.7 Watching some amazing pornstar do incredible tricks...hey just being real!
.8 [Probably the craziest one:] Umm, well...because i dont REALLY open up to anyone I talk quite often when I'm alone. Out loud. AND...I actually have a person from my past that I go to with all my problems and talk to them as if they are really there. My mind adds there response automatically[even their laugh]...crazy as shit right?...lol..Well I dont really care that you think I'm crazy...everyone has odd quirks to them. [Thats definitely only one of many!]

So...8 people fit for the award..what does that mean? Does it mean that I feel like they give me TMi in a good way?..or the ones I like to "peep" on the most?...Hmmm, since this is a TMi award. I'm going to pick 8 bloggers who could probably get me moist on their writting skills alone. [I mean that is the straightest way possible..lol :)!]

And the award goes to...
--Mae, Wifepoo, & A la belle etoille over at Chocolate For Aphrodite
--She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
--Jennifer Wilmer over Inside JStar's Head
--Val over at Planet Pro-tron
--Mo over at Truthfully Mo
--Rippa over at The Intersection of Madness and Reality
--Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
--Fabulo-la over at Me. And then some

Most of these being mostly poetry blogs! :) I LOVE poetry..pretty much obsessed with it and anyone who can write into my heart [or my panties ;)] I appreciate reading! & of course I'm giving it back to Cook and Reese! :)! See how I followed the rules to the tee?...Ya'll dont have to do that...AT ALL! lol, be lazy like me and just enjoy babes! Welcome new followers! :) ! Hope your learning things about me...I'm really not as weird as I sound...[I'm in denial] :)! Hmmm...had some things to discuss, but I'm too tired to try to type another post tonight. I'll do it in the morning...well whenever I decide to roll out of my bed tomorrow! Goodnight!

*--Interrupting my regularly scheduled program--*

Yo.
So there is a new young lady to blogger. Her name is MzAuNatural-Beauty over at *Truth On The Rocks! U Ready?*  Her sister posted a poem that she wrote and I would like everyone to go take there time out to read it! It's a wonderful piece! :)

A preview of HER poem:
Barbie Bitch

When I grow up

I wanna be ignorant.

I wanna answer to guys that approach me like

'yo shawty u real fly

and so wassup can I hit

I wanna be the ignant bitch,

you know the one that laugh and smile

and bite my bottom lip,

cuz I'm so happy that he treats me

just like the next chick.

But that’s all I can expect

Imitating girls like Nicki Minaj, Trina

And lil Kim,

I wanna be

Just like them!

WHEN I GROW UP I’M GONNA BE A FIVE STAR BITCH!!!

..............Go read the rest *here*! It's a wonderful piece! Go over and welcome and comment! Ok....I'll be back with a topic later on today! Until then....Toodles! :)

Sick of Award post?...Sorry I cant help it :)!

Yo.
So....I received another award! :) Yahh! This lovely award was given to me by the wonderful Keenya over at Golden Mind! She is HILARIOUS! Seriously. She doesnt blog as much as I would like to read...but I do love her writtings when she posts! :) If you havent checked her out...Gone head and do that NOW! & Follow her on twitter...good entertainment.. :)! Anywho, I'm lazy and hate following rules! But, This time I'll try to switch it up...give it to some new bloggers or ones I find just off the wall different! :) So babies dont feel offended if I dont award you.Ok, I'm timing myself to see how long  I take to do this post. Following the rules..which include awarding 7 people with the award...and telling 7 facts about me! :) Ok, so here goes.
7 Random Facts about me:

•  I recently realized I'm a tad bit stuck up. I know I shouldnt look at people and think they are beneath me...but I do sometimes. So sue me?..I'm workin' on it! Promise!
• I love feeling useful. Like helping people out with things...I makes me feel so good.
• I'm REALLY mean. And a tad bit psychotic! I got it from my mother...I like to think Im a little less crazy than she is! :)
• This whole not havin' sex thing....pshhh, shit starting to seriously fuck with my mind! Yea, Im pretty sure I will be considered an "addict" in the future. Pretty damn sure! :)
• I'm frustrated with this whole going natural thing already. My edges get ridiculous. But I have to keep tellin myself that I can do this! [Tips & stuff would be greatlt accepted! :)]
• I always think Im better when Im not in a relationship..but I'm pretty sure its when I'm  in one. But being single has really helped me evaluate and better myself! :)!
• Black is my favorite color! Purple is my secondary!

Re-reading the rules from her page..I totally did that wrong. Was supposed to tell 7 things I love...well that took 12 minutes...so oh well! lol, Random facts are better! :)

Ok...and finally the award goes to :
Moe over at You know you dead azz wrong
With love___starz over at with love,starz
Chanel over at The Rainbow Room
Simone and Cynthia over at The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly
Enigma Jones over at Life and Times of a Trifling Chick
Jennifer Wilmer over at Inside JStar's Head
Leila over at Black Girl With Long Hair

It's soo many other Kreative blogs but it took me 1hour and 30 minutes to do this whole post. Smh, then it actually disappered..I was efinetly about to flip the hell out! lol..anywho Enjoy. You dont have to follow the rules or none of that nonsense! Thanks for following me everyone! :)  Until next time...Toodles! :)

Another Award? ...They really love me :)!

Yo.
Hello lovlies! :)So...as you can see I got another award! About a week ago..I'm late, so sue me?lol! Anywho..I was awarded this award by two lovely bloggers. The first was the wonderful Supastarrr over at Supastarrr, the co-ed! She is definitely one of my favorite bloggers! I loveeee her blog! :) It is hilarious and its always wonderful to see her point of view. The other was a recent discovery. The lovely Ms. Leiominala over at Leiomi Nala's Corner! [How do you prononce your name ma'am?]! I love her blog as well. On it she shares a lot of random tidbits. Some cute,funny, and just entertaining things! So if you havent checked these two lovely's out...Do so NOW! :)

And the award goes to....................*DRUMROLL*
Neesh B. Fly over at The Real Dish
Sylvia over at Photography by Me
Khaki over at Not All Baltimore Chicks are Stupid [My cousin was outraged I gave this award..based on your Nikki Minaj post..lol He is a die hard fan. Yes, HE! :)]
Ro over at Love, Faith and Hope
Juicy Carter over at Juicy Carter
Keenya over at Golden Mind
E Dot Dizzy over at E Dot Dizzy
Lalaliybean over at DESSERT or disaster
She Hate Me over at Blogs of the Invisible Soul
Ashante Lott over at .These words were made up
Cook The Poet over at Musik&Soul
Secretia over at Secret Story Time
her. over at A swirl of My World
Darling Nikky& Kia Poison over at Tasteless Diamonds

AND of coarse back to Supastarr and Leiomi Nala!
There are rules to this award and I honestly hate following the rules. It takes forever. This post took me about 2 hour to complete..maybe Im slighly off?lol..who knows...anywho ya'll dont have to follow the rules. Just enjoy! :)
Thanks to all my wonderful followers. Thanks for taking the time out to read my thoughts..I really do love and appreciate you all! :) ok..Toodles!

Wanna read another view on Cheating?

Ok, So quick post.
If you had the time to read my post Re: In the mind of a cheater, I'd love for you guys to go check out a similar yet different view on cheating. Ms. RO over at Love, Faith, And Hope wrote a response! [She herself has never cheated! :)]...Go check out her opinion on Cheating -->*HERE*<-- ! I enjoyed it, Hope you guys will too! :) Ok, Toodles!

I'm a star in my mind....lol, Another award...{ :) }!

Yo.

Guess what?....Yeap by the title you can see I got another award. I got the " I love your blog award". Isn't this so sweet? Yes, My second blog award! I'm sooo happy! :) This blog award was given to me by Neesha B. Fly over at *The Real Dish*! [<----ViSiT HER]! Her blog is a mixture of celebrity news,gossip, current events, music, fashion, arts...all with the twist of her opinion. Very interesting..not so typical like a lot of Celebrity Blogs! I love hers! Anywho Im rambling, go check her out...NOW!
Toodles!

Re: In the mind of "a cheater"

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Ok, before I even state the topic at hand I know that throughout this post I will manage to sound like a complete hypocrite while contradicting almost every statement I make. But hopefully by the end of the post you will at least understand MY OPINION. ! Ok, so today I am basically responding to Bubbles over at  irant. idance. iwrite. She recently wrote a post titled "In the mind of a cheater"[See it *HERE*] and I would like to respond. I'm sure people will disagree...all the more reason to comment! :) ! She discussed why cheaters cheat and her whole point of view on cheating. Now I feel compelled to discuss mine. Now in no way do I condone cheating. At all, get that straight before I start to express any feeling on the topic.

So...Why do cheaters cheat? Why did I cheat? <--- [Her first question]
Well there are two reasons that cheaters cheat. It is either an emotional need or a physical need. People tend to say the reasons are based on the gender, but cheating is not to be narrowed down to a gender. Men cheat. Women cheat. People...People just cheat. Both reasons can be broken down into many things. The cheater could be lacking what they need from their partner emotionally: attention, affection, communication...etc. OR the total opposite. The cheater could be getting emotionally smothered by their partner where they just need room to breathe. Thus comes the third person [the person the cheater cheats with]. That person might give them all the compliments in the world, might make time for them when their partner seems to never have any. OR could be the one that doesn’t bother them, the one who gives them as much space as possible, an outlet when the person feels smothered in the relationship...etc. A physical need? The cheater's partner could be lacking in the sex department, isn’t willing to do certain things, just plain boring...etc. OR the person could LOVE their partner’s sex and just yearn for more, looking for "Ms. Right now","Ms. How I like it","Ms. No-strings". Basically being just to be fucking. I could go on forever and ever on reasons why people cheat. But moving on...Why did I cheat?
Hmmm, well like Ms.Bubbles said "I don’t know." I don’t know meaning...things were going well in the relationship but one night I slipped he wasn’t there and I was horny. Simple and as plain as that...meaning "It just happened." people always ask “How the fuck does that just happen?"...Well, you’re in a room with someone...your hormones are all over the place...and you know you want sex. [Right here is your place to be strong enough to walk away or like I was told "not put yourself in this situation in the first place"] But since I already had put myself there when the touching and shit started happening...IT JUST HAPPENED. Plain. Simple. I fought the urge...but still it happened. I asked the first person who cheated on me “What the fuck do you mean it just happened? Did I not cross your mind? Was it not enough to stop you from fucking her?"...and when I cheated I asked myself the same question. And sadly...I did think about him, I thought about him before, I thought about him during, I thought about him after...after while I cried. I thought about him the whole way. Why didn’t my thoughts stop me...why didn’t they stop me from hurting him? Because...I knew what I wanted, what it felt like I NEEDED that night to feel better. I knew that I was a bad person.
So why did I cheat?--Because that night I lacked self-control...because that night all I wanted was pleasure....and he was not there to give it to me.

Now people say once a cheater always a cheater. Well...I will not cheat again. Because it honestly destroyed me. It destroyed me as a person, and left me in a place where I never want to be again. It got to a point where I felt like I was begging him to stay with me "Give me another chance" and all that dumb bullshit I used to hate to see other girls do. And if you know me...you know that that is nowhere in Robyn's character to be that typical bitch. Nowhere...But because I knew I was in the wrong...because I knew I had so much to contribute to the breakup I felt like it was my job to fix the pain, no matter if I had to beg and plead. “Let’s crawl back to love.” ...When really fuck that, I don’t advise any woman to go there...let it be, let him beg you. When I say I cried my life into a puddle, it's no joke. Seconds after the cheating he called me. It was 4 in the morning. He called saying “So...you weren’t going to call me to say goodnight?"...Immediately tears rolled down my face, it took everything out of me to not break down and tell him how much of a bad person I was...and how he deserved better. It took so much out of me. I was crying outside listening to him talk about how much he loved me...and that he was sitting waiting for me to call. And wtf was I doing? Fucking someone of no importance to me. Just for that temporary high. Temporary highs lead to drastic lows. Later when we broke up he was admitting how he cheated and how it was bothering him to keep secrets from me and how bad he felt...and I thought I owed him the same honesty. So I told him, it hurt him. I felt...words can’t describe that hurt. After asking me why did I cheat and me answering it just happened, he said “See, you’re not giving me a reason. You say it won’t happen again but how could I stop it from happening again if there isn’t reason. I mean you could have said 'because it was Tuesday' and I would make it my business to stay on the phone w/ you 24 hours on Tuesdays. But you not having a reason...how could I fix that? What about the next time you’re horny and I’m not there?"...Wow. All I could say was “It won’t happen again."...he made a valid point. He shut any apology that I ever gave down. If you didn’t have a reason...what would stop you from cheating the next time? Because next time I WILL have self control...I will always remember that cheating damn near destroyed me.
Her next question was: What if you [the person being cheated on] cheated? Wouldn’t you want your mate to take you back?
Basically put yourself in their shoes. Well I'll give you my scenario. Once he told me he cheated...I was willing to take him back. I was willing to work with him through the flaws...I was willing to be there, and would have been willing even if I hadn’t cheated. [Love makes you do and accept some dumb ass shit.]His reaction to this was " I don’t think anyone has showed me they loved me this much, maybe [enter ex girlfriend before me name here], but not even she showed that she loved me this much. One day I am going to marry you." Sounds like he was happy right?...Now minutes later after I confessed it all changed. “Bye Robyn, just bye." and "Since you look at cheating as not such a big idea idk if I would want to marry anyone like that." BAM! POW. And all those other action words that would describe what was being done to my heart at the time. I was so confused. I mean here I was ready to work with you through your problem [because you cheated well over one time] and you could not/would not accept my one time cheating. Damn, should've kept my mouth shut. I do think cheating is a big deal...it's a huge deal actually. Anywho, putting myself in my partners shoes since I've cheated before...Would I take someone else back if they cheat on me? Ask the person who cheated "If I cheated on you...would you take me back?" If they say yes...proceed to make up a story about how you cheated [make it seem as real as possible]...just to get their REAL reaction, and go from there. If he/she was actually willing to be there with you sincerely, tell them you lied to get their reaction. And maybe those who would accept you...MAYBE they deserve ONE more chance, those who are like fuck you...then fuck them!
"I can say that cheaters don't mean to cheat. We don't go out of our way to hurt the people who love us."- Bubbles
With all of that said...give me your opinion on this whole thing?! I'd love to hear both sides...no matter what! :)! Toodles!

*Gasp*....I feel like a star: And the Award goes to...

Yo.
*screaming excitedly*: LOVELY'S I GOT AN AWARD.! Yes, little ole me got an award. I'm so happy about this. My first blog award was given to me earlier today by SYLVIA over at * Photography by Me * . She's so sweet. I like that she has so much variety in her posts, so you never get bored visiting.! Her blog is very entertaining and she takes some pretty badass pictures. If you havent checked her out...Do so NOW! :)

I'm not required to do anything but accept the award really, but I do want to give it to those other bloggers who have shown me support! [Sidenote: Could I give someone who rewards me the same award back?..What about if they created the award?..If so, I'd like to give it back to Sylvia! :)]

[Isn't this the cutest award ever?]

Those who have shown me constant support and deserve the award:

• xxxx over at *Golden Mind* 
• her. over at *A Swirl of My World*
• Supastarr over at *Supastarrr, the,co-ed*
• Secretia over at *SecretStory Time*
• A.R. over at *fuck the rest*
• Ro over at *Ro is getting fit*

**  I would also give it to Reem and Meech becaue they follow my blog and comment when needed since the beginning..but those whores dont have blogs! Booo...but I appreciate yall too :)
Ughhh, I feel like I missing someone. If I missed you and youve constantly shown me love...I'm sorry! Truly! I know how some of yall dont like making post dedicated to awards and you dont have to if you dont want to, Anywho..enjoy guys! I really appreciate you all! Ok, Toodles! :)

What gives you the right?!

Yo.

Today I was going to discuss more sappy relationship shit. Today I was going to be all in my feelings and discuss my problems. I didn’t feel like ranting about anything UNTIL I was browsing through blogs and saw just something unacceptable in my opinion. [I don’t remember her blog address but this is in response to her.]
She posted this picture that she found on facebook:


She said that this was one of her facebook friends. She also stated that 'her friends were being nice and could only find her shoes to comment on, not one had the decency to give her criticism'. And since they were holding back the truth she took it upon herself to "be real" by saying "Babe, you're big. Cover up."

............What the fuck? Who says shit like that...who writes shit like that on peoples pictures?! Now the reason this bothers me soo much is just because she said "you’re big". Was that really necessary?--She should have just said cover up...but throwing in that "your big" just makes her inconsiderable. I’m not a small girl so this really gets under my skin. [Read my "Since when does small equal sexy?" post *HERE* to learn more on my weight issue! ] It really pissed me off reading it. I mean who the fuck are you to think you have the authority to say this to this girl? Her point was to discuss why people hold back their true feelings? Why do people hesitate to comment if they disagree? Well...probably so that they won’t come off looking like the inconsiderate asshole. To keep the peace. I'm not a follower of the whole “If you don’t have anything nice to say don't say it at all." phrase. BUT if you gone sit and say some mean ass shit be as nice as possible. And that shit just wasn’t cool. I mean personally if someone left me a comment like that on one of my pictures we would have a HUGE problem. Not for saying that I’m big, but just for being a bitch bold enough to test me on facebook. Now I personally want to know the girls response to “Babe, you're big. Cover up."! I really want to know what she said. I hope she just laughed it off and marked her as childish, because that for damn sure was not a mature way to handle the situation.

People hold back because it’s a sign of maturity. You can’t always spit out what’s going through your mind...sometimes it has to be censored. I’m saying this shit and I’m as bitchy as they come. Censoring what’s in your mind before it comes from your mouth is a sign of maturity. I understand writing about it in your blog and rambling on the subject there but actually having the huge nuts to say that to that girl...Who the fuck are you to go there?! ....My response to the subject was:

"Hmm, I was definitely with you on previous post I've read. But this one. No ma'am. Everyone isn’t going to be a stick figure. Weight is a touchy subject for women and that comment alone was insensitive and could have definitely destroyed her. Ouch. She could stand to wear a higher waist skirt, but saying she’s big and cover up? Come on now, that’s just crazy. AND she isn’t even that big, just has excess stomach. If she is confident enough to wear it, I say she flaunt it, without having people tear her down about it. That’s just like someone telling a thin girl she needs ass to wear short shorts...or bigger breast to wear certain tops. They already know there flaws, if they are comfortable in their skin let them do them!"

Now, I’m not smashing 'Ms Dufa'. I don’t agree with her choice on this blog topic...she could have had better taste in what she said to that girl. The rest of her topics I agree with, and she has a pretty nice site. [BTW I found the address---Visit her*HERE*!] She also made a good point. "When most people want to comment on your post and it’s contrary to your opinion or public opinion, they'll comment as anonymous. Why? Is it the fear that the person will retort or not visit your blog again or that the person's followers will attack you. I just don't get it." --I think it’s just because people don’t want to tear other bloggers down. No sense in destroying them. Now me, ya'll can comment whatever. If you agree, cool. If you don’t, cool. I know people aren’t always going to agree but I look forward to hearing the two different opinions on my topics! I never write anonymous whether I agree or disagree because there is always a nice way to say that you disagree. ALWAYS! Am I the only one that thinks this was out of place? Where is the line between being real and being just plain rude?! Ok, until next time...Toodles.